Sorry he's on his last leg. Loosing friends is always hard. :( At least he had a good life.

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Some things are simply beyond words!!!!

Gentle support and validation while you ride the waves, yadim.

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*********Sniffle and sigh************

I'm extremely sorry for your loss Yardim. Please know my thought and prayers are with you. Please take good care of yourself during this very hard emotional time. Hugs to you our Yardim. Also remember we are here for you so come back and let us support you.

That hurts beyond words. I still mourn my Simon. I was with him when he was born and by his side three years later when he died. Some homicidal maniac poisoned my kitty and he died in my arms. I feel your pain, tho fifteen years is a hell of a lot longer to love and lose than three. But that's spitting hairs.

I had a friend of mine tell me when Simon died, "No animal will ever outlive their owner. When a pet dies it just leaves room in your heart to love another one."

Can you get another horse? Maybe get it as a foal and raise it?

Gentlest gentlest support and purrs, Yadlim. Angels on four legs are such joy. Feel us giving you safe soft support, okay?

Oh, I am so sorry. A few years ago I lost my dog unexpectedly. I still miss him so much. He was such a special dog, he and I connected and he actually understood what I said. Henry was his name and he was a ShihTzu full of personality. I have another dog, Checkers also a Shih Tzu who will be 10 years old this year, I rescued him. I love him too, but Henry will always hold a special place in my heart.

At this moment you have a couple a choices, you can choose to remember the good times you and your horse shared, or you can focus on losing him. I know it is tough. You and your horse have been together for so long and he really is a friend. Remembering all the good will still bring a smile to your face. Start making a memory box of pictures, notes, horse hair, etc. That way when he is laid to rest, you can still treasure his memory and the good times.

You still have your horse right now, stay in the present, and cherish every moment with him. Some times thinking of the future can be as bad as thinking of the past.

Hugs

Missed you much! So, so sorry for the reason. I know how much your horses mean to you. This is hard to hear because it goes to heartbreak and grief. We're with you. Since you know chronic pain yourself, it has to be rough to see a dear animal friend going through it under your care and as your responsibility. So it's good you made your decision, but so sorry this relationship that helps you cope is ending. Keep talking to us as you find the way to go on now.

So sorry. That's what keeps going through my mind. Just so, so sorry. Much support to you, yadlim.

I have family members that I'd rather lose than to lose a pet.

I'm so sorry, Yadlim.

I'm so sorry, Yadlim.

Oh no! How terrible! Is he on Bute for his pain? Not a good thing to give on a regular basis, but if Shaman is close to leaving maybe worth it? I'm sure you know all of this.
I had to put my old jumper mare down last year. I saved part of her forelock but realized after that I hardly had any pictures of her. I do have her son, though.
When I was a kid my Mom had a stallion named Shaman.
I'm so sorry that you have to go through this! Hopefully you will have one more summer with him. Grieving with PTSD and Cp is not easy. Be kind to yourself and know that when it is time you are doing the right thing by ending his pain. He will always be with you in your heart and soul...

wow it would not let me post weird i love horses there in my heart , i spent my summer and after school working with colts my mom used to worry because i sat on the ground soon i was standing i broke them to lead , in the end i could do anything with them none else could get so close , my folks lost our horses i had to get the colts so he could take them it them i cried threw whole thing
im sorry you have to do that horses make great pets , 15 that pretty good , you could volunteer time sending hugs and prayers min

our deepest sympathies.... may i offer this -i am sure that he will have friends waiting for him on the rainbow bridge when he says goodbye to his friends here. and they will know all the best pastures.

may his time here be blessed and peaceful. may you find peace within this difficult time.

-Linden

Thanks so much all!! I have to also admit that most of the reason I have not been around as much is that this site has gotten too busy for me to keep up, lol. I stop by and read, but I can't seem to keep up. I am going to try a lot harder to keep up and to post more.

In the dark, at night when no one is home or awake, I cry. I cry because I am going to miss him so much! His end will be calm and painless. As a responsible owner of animals, I own all of them that, especially by beloved Shaman.

I will have a new equine to fill the gap, though he/she won't be here for another 18 months, give or take. I have been planning for the last six months or so to breed my daughter's mare to have a mule baby next summer. The mule won't take Shaman's place, but will give me my next and probably my last mount.

I have hundreds of pictures of my Shaman. Better than that, I have thousands of fantastic memories of him...

This one is from a couple years ago.

My daughter had taught Shaman to go over a short jump, about 2 feet tall, so we could video tape her riding skills bridleless and bareback to send into Cavalia, a traveling equestrian show.

Other than the occasional downed tree on the trail, I have never DONE it before. My daughter talks me into giving it a try. Shaman was never a calm horse, and I am guessing that he would be what would be called forward in his jumping style as he wanted to surge up to the jump and over it. Oh he was having so much FUN with that little jump!!

As a big horse, 15.3 hands, with a LONG back, and with a ground covering gait, I am sure that any English riders would have laughed at us as I mounted up in my glorified bareback pad with stirrups, and set around the arena, holding him to a trot. When we got to the jump, he did exactly as I had been watching him do with my daughter, and he lifted his front end up several feet higher than he needed to clear the jump and surged over it at what felt like warp nine!

Yeah, my daughter video taped it as I kept off his mouth with my hands, but in the process wound up face fist in his neck! Luckily it was Shaman and he quickly stopped so I could climb back off his neck and onto his back where I was supposed to be.

IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!! And I have never done it again, thank you very much!

I am two months past the day I lost my furry therapy buddy, my cat Jack, and I am incredibly grateful for memories, the sketches I made of him (never complete, as he was rarely still).... I wrap you in gentle safe hugs, if only humans had the unconditional acceptance of us that our furred friends do....

Soft support,
Leo

When you describe him and riding him, it takes me back to reading "Black Beauty" when I was in elementary school and the rides on the pampas in sheep roundups with gauchos when I was in high school. The love of horses. So sorry for what you're going through but thanks for sharing your memories. They are beautiful..