I am at wit's end. I have been fighting insomnia for several days, weeks. I have forgot when I had my last good night's sleep. Between the nightmares and arthritis, I am not sleeping. Even when I feel dead tired, I can't fall to sleep. My mind will stay awake to avoid the nightmares. I don't pass out until 2 am and then all I do is have nightmares or toss and turn from the arthritis. I am on prazosin for nightmares and take aleve for arthritis before bed but it's not working.

I have tried aromatherapy, chamomile tea, meditation, medication and nothing is working on the nightmares. I can deal with the arthritis but the nightmares are getting terrible. I am so tired I am starting to hallucinate at times. My mood is unstable and I just wish I could get some sleep so I can function. Lack of sleep has in the past driven me to some of my darkest times and I really don't wan to go back down the rabbit hole again.

Of all the PTSD symptoms, I think the nightmares are the worst. They get you at your most vulnerable. They are the hardest to control. I have accepted my hyper-vigilance. I can handle the startle reflex. I have learned to logically reason my way out of unfounded fear, paranoia, and anger. Just the thought of going to sleep and having nightmares can cause a panic attack in me. I pray to the Gods,please end these nightmares.