I am up after three hours of sleep just from general anxiety, so no worries on what happened, the fact it was triggering and scary is all you need to share... i am still feeling shi$$y after a bad day myself, so soft wishes for a good sleep to you!

Look, bad stuff can happen anytime, anywhere, in the blink of an eye. It's next to impossible to always be on high alert for anybody.

So no beating yourself up for nearly getting blindsided, ok? Nope, quiddit.
You survived.
Survival was probably a combination of luck and your own survival instincts, it usually works that way.
You survived a lot already-and you deserve credit for that, too. You may not feel strong, but you are.

Anyway, when or if you feel like talking about what happened, feel free. I'm just glad you're ok.

Yeah, I agree with not beating yourself up too much with the idea that you chose to be a victim again. I mean, that could extend to choosing to waking up in the morning, too. You have a right just to be human and have a bad day for the same reason as anyone else does. It's just that with us it triggers stuff, I know. Hope you get rest and feel better.

hugs

I have frequent thoughts about launching a campaign to ban the word "stupid" from this forum. It is both judgmental and denigrating. Still... It is an honest summary of how all this can make us feel sometimes. Sometimes all the time... Besides, ban a word and my compulsive contrariness will cause me to use it frequently just 'cause of my authority issues.

Talk about it when you are ready, or never talk about it if you are never ready. Either way, we will be here for you, trying to calm you when you are upset, even when we do not know why you are upset. Details unnecessary. Peace on Earth is my only goal... I think others here share my impossible dream.

Thanks everyone. *hugs*