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I have chronic PTSD both from childhood and my adulthood.
My mom.... What a nasty savage excuse of a mother. I haven't talked to her in at least 6 months, until today when she showed up.
I have been sexually abused & would go into flight mode. Crazy that my mom was the cause of so much of that abuse & with her, I don't go into flight mode, I go into fight mode.
When I saw her today, I told her about herself. i was very emotional, but I only screamed at her once, and I didnt hit her although God knows I wanted too. She's toxic, my life is so much better when she's staying far away from it.
Today, I believe she was bored, and she sought me out because she needed a victum to verbally abuse for her entertainment.
I've been working hard on changing myself and my life. She came here today and I laid it on her. I don't live in the past today. (At least where she is concerned) I bet its safe to say I won't be hearing from her again for at least another six months maybe even a year. I sure hope because that woman is bat shit crazy.
Hopefully you won't hear from her for a very long time. And when you do hear from her again, just remember that it's your choice whether or not you talk to her at all. I cut my parents off and that will never change. They're too messed up with no hope of changing. And they are the direct cause of my having complex PTSD today.
I still struggle daily. My last couple of interactions with them were so violent and volatile that those interactions in addition to the other ones from so many years really did a number on me. Still trying to recover but my chances of recovery are so much better now that they're not in my life.
My mother is toxic, too. It's been 8 years since I spoke to her. I tried to get comfort from her and told her I'd been molested twice when I was 10. She went after me for the rest of my life about it instead. At Christmas in 2010 at every meal after for 3 days she did nothing but talk about how disgusting anal sex was to her instead. That was a great comfort, as you can imagine. When after 3 days I didn't react, though, I got hit in the face. So that's why I've not spoken to her in 8 years.
Boundaries. They're great things to maintain when we have mothers like you and I have.