I just want you to know you are not a worthless human being. You are correct, people can be insensitive and harsh sometimes, and there isn't usually much we can do about it. Now, I know this is going to sound a little hokey, but you can be nice to yourself. I am not really going to say anything about cutting, as I burn so I understand. All I can suggest is that you start by doing one nice thing for yourself. Maybe a warm bath, light some incense or fragrant candle, perhaps some tea. All you need to do is ask yourself what is one nice thing i can do for myself in this moment. Care for yourself, and let the world take care of itself. take care.

My thereapist just taught me about "living in the moment" which works well if I start when I first notice anxiety coming on. It is just barely enough help but here's what it is (if you don't already know). Focus on what you are doing, not the oast or the future. If you are eating, eat....ONLY. Concentrate on the taste and texture of the food. Concentrate on the satisfaction of the food and only the food. It helps calm me as long as the anxiety attack was not one of those "hit by a mac truck" attacks I also get that come on really fast and strong. Breathing exercises are my best hope for those. I am new at therapy so I hope my little knowledge helps you.

Why bother hating PTSD? It's like hating your big toe, or hating your reading glasses. If you don't complicate the issues with hatred or fear, you will see them more clearly. You know that cutting is not a regular part of the PTSD experience, right? It's a venting process, let it flow out. Instead of that, let it flow out here in this safe place. Can you do that?. Working is stressful. And I remember at my last job when we took in a new partner, he made fun of people, he said sarcastic things. I was not used to this, having switched from big busineess to a spiritual center. It was exhausting working with him after not having to deal with such people for a long time. But those people exist in the world. Cut out your feelings about them. You don't have to feel something about everything. They're just goons. Lol. They don't know squat and they're pretty much ridiculous in their ugliness. You don't live in ugliness. None of us in here can. We are like the princess and the pea. We feel it all. We don't have to. Shut it down. Feel other things. They are not worthy of your time or attention. We, us, here, do care about each other. This is a haven until you learn to do whatever it is you must to deal with "regular" people. You're doing great and you're reaching out, and I know exactly how you feel. Sending love and good thoughts for your moving on.

Come here and talk it out when you feel that urge to hurt yourself. See if it helps. There are people here who would help by replying to your post.

I would always read posts from someone in trouble and try to help. There are people here willing to help if they can, why not try it? Tell us what is going on in your head and we will talk to you.

I get those feelings of being a failure and wanting to hurt myself, you are not alone. We are not worthless, we are just people with problems.

My friends you are so wise and kind, comforting and compassionate! I am blessed through this mental illness to have the opportunity to meet people who are real about their lives, their suffering and the healing touch of friendship. Thank you! God bless you! Hugs!

PTSD gets better, more managable and easy to understand. You'll find that through the process you learn a lot about yourself, and us ppl with PTSD are QUITE SMART. I'm starting to think there's a lot of not smart ppl out there in this world...lol.

Hang in there, keep talking to everyone here. We all deal with similiar feelings or have felt that way at some point. We're here to support each other ;)

I would check into Dialectical Behavior Therapy. The website to check it out is www.dbtselfhelp.com It helps you learn a lot of good skills for the cutting and PTSD