heyy i dont know if this should feel good or bad... but lately i been feeling so much since i been to my adopted moms... been there for quite a while.. my cousins were thered that i havent seen since the christmas i got put in 4 different hospital... i was horrible to them... but they were there i got so over emotional so i ran out of the house got on a bike and took off so fast.. i dont think i ever rode that fast in my whole intire life... well i found a park i slid the bike on the ground the got on the swing while i was swinging i notice something they still loved me and cared.. why was that? i was not even good to them... the last time i seen them i told them i was going to kill them... they act like that never happend they act like everything in the world is perfect... i started crying so i jump off the swing and ran then i throwed myself on the ground to feel something other than the pain inside i ended up bruiseing my tail bone while i was on the ground i desided to do sittups for the heck of it. even tho i was in so much pain in and out all together i did 23... then in just laid there i heard someone yelling then i heard a car then my name so i just layed there but she saw me so i got up my adopted mom was yelling at me picking fights and when ever i tried to talk she pretty much shushed me i kept trying to tell her what i was feeling and why i did that but i did have a chance sher drove off left me there so i took my time riding the bike back to her house so i didnt have to deal with everyone once i got there i put the bike up went inside everyone is fine except my mom she starts in on saying stuff that i didnt even do i guess thats her problem. but no so i ran out the door and ran as fast as i could which was really hard because my back hurted but i cept the move on by the time i made it down the 3rd street i got pull over by my adopted moms mom and dad which i call them nana and papa... nana is the most importain to me they told me to get in the car i just stood there thinking my cons and pros... i decided to get in the car ever since i feel really emotional and very sensitive... well whatever im home now with my younger sister i love her dearly... but i dont think she gets how much i do... i have to some how quit thinking about the past... i just dont know how... when ever i look forwards the past seem to always get in the way... does anyone know what to do about that???