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Sandchild
Sandchild

I know that I have repressed memories of some sort of sexual abuse from when I was young. But then I also have more recent sexual abuse (about 2 years ago) that I remember vividly and I hate all of it. I hate not knowing but also knowing. I just want to forget all of it completely. It makes my life so awful.


I've tried just about everything but I feel like I can't get close to my fiance because of these terrible thoughts and fears invading my mind. I feel lost and alone.

SimpsonsOK
SimpsonsOK
Sandchild, you are not alone here on DS. Unfortunately, we have work to do to feel safe with intimacy. Unfortunately, the healing takes remembering. Hope you find the right therapist to help you with this. We do heal; we do come out on the other side. Healing and comforting hugs.
soulsearcher83
soulsearcher83
Hi Sandchild. I'm struggling with a different type of abuse, both from childhood and adulthood. And I've recommended this book like a million times on here but "Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving" by Pete Walker has been my lifesaver. He's a therapist in California and suffered abuse as a child and some as an adult. It helps me more than friggen therapist ever has. I just wish I had it sooner.

It's on Amazon Unlimited but I think you can order a physical copy. Walker explains things better than ANY therapist ever has. I wish I had it earlier. I'm sorry you are suffering and, despite the past (distant and recent), you can rise above it. It takes time and support. Sending you love, hugs and support.