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I can not sleep!
I few hours ago, i had flashbacks about when my son's father was abusive towards me.
The flashbacks weren't intense enough to make me feel like i wasn't where i actually was, but to the point to make me anxious.
I am sick of hearing, "I fcking hate you, id kill you if i could" in my head. And it scares me that he said this to me. While trying to choke me, while i was holding my son who was 5 months old at the time. I am scared of him. I haven't been taking to him at all lately, despite the fact that we have a son together. I just feel like i have absolutely nothing to say to him because i have already told him numerous times that i have hated him.
I'm just sick of dealing with the memories of him hurting me, sometimes its just to much for me, and it make me feel like a horrible person for not getting out of the situation sooner. My mind is racing while writing this, and when this happens i feel like my thoughts are outside of my head, even though i know they clearly aren't. It's terrible, i think its just part of feeling dissociative.
I want to sleep, but i am terrified to try...and i am also very depressed about my life at the moment. Not only am i dealing with flashbacks and memories about him hurting me, i am also dealing with memories from being in a scary psych-ward...I really wish i never ended up there, these two things ruined my life, and set me back...
I know this post was probably flip flopped back and fourth, but i just needed a place to come and vent, thank you if you listened to me ramble on about nothing.
I few hours ago, i had flashbacks about when my son's father was abusive towards me.
The flashbacks weren't intense enough to make me feel like i wasn't where i actually was, but to the point to make me anxious.
I am sick of hearing, "I fcking hate you, id kill you if i could" in my head. And it scares me that he said this to me. While trying to choke me, while i was holding my son who was 5 months old at the time. I am scared of him. I haven't been taking to him at all lately, despite the fact that we have a son together. I just feel like i have absolutely nothing to say to him because i have already told him numerous times that i have hated him.
I'm just sick of dealing with the memories of him hurting me, sometimes its just to much for me, and it make me feel like a horrible person for not getting out of the situation sooner. My mind is racing while writing this, and when this happens i feel like my thoughts are outside of my head, even though i know they clearly aren't. It's terrible, i think its just part of feeling dissociative.
I want to sleep, but i am terrified to try...and i am also very depressed about my life at the moment. Not only am i dealing with flashbacks and memories about him hurting me, i am also dealing with memories from being in a scary psych-ward...I really wish i never ended up there, these two things ruined my life, and set me back...
I know this post was probably flip flopped back and fourth, but i just needed a place to come and vent, thank you if you listened to me ramble on about nothing.
I was diagnosed with a mood disorder, but not Bipolar disorder. I never have experienced any episodes of being Manic and no one else has told me i have either.
I sometimes do sleep with a stuffed animal...but it only helps for a little while, and i usually end up tossing it aside.
Have you tried clonidien? its classed as a bloodpressur pill but its a alph intagnist, it blocks truamatic memorys in the part of the brain where they are stored so to speak, if the alpha intagnist doesnt work there is a beta one that is a blood pressure pill too, i think its fairly new treatment but works wit ptsd really well, it works pretty good sometimes you still have problems but at its worst it helped me alot
1. breathe slowly and deeply. In for 5 seconds. Hold for 5 seconds. Out for 5 seconds. and keep repeating it over and over.
2. Use your 5 senses. Smell 5 things where you are now. Taste 5 things. Hear 5 things. See 5 things. Touch 5 things. BUT if one of the senses is what triggered you don't use that sense, skip over it and use another one twice.
3. Call someone you trust, like a friend or your T
4. Write in a journal
5. Draw
6. Change your scenery. If you are outside go inside and visa versa.
7. Write poetry or a story
8. Read a book
9. Play video games
10. Write a letter to someone who hurt you. Then crumple it up and throw it away. Put all the thoughts down on paper as if you would show the person but tear it up and never show them. That is a way for you to get it out.
11. Go for a walk or jog. Be mindful, look at your surroundings and feel the sun, rain, snow, hot, cold.
12. Hold ice in your hand. The cold will snap you back to the present and wont leave any marks
13. Snap a rubber band against your wrist. Once again it will bring you back to the present.
14. Repeat phrases such as "I am safe now" "It's over" "It's just a memory"
15. If you have a pet like a dog or cat pet them, brush them, hug them. Pets hold unconditional love for their owners and are amazing at making people feel better.
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