Hello! I just joined and I'm really in need of advice. I have PTSD from a death related trauma, which was about 3 years ago. When it comes to me as myself, not my illness, I'm extremely optimistic and I love life and I know things can always get better, and I'm going to heal and grow happier and have an amazing life. I never self harm and have never had any thoughts of taking my life. I try my best to always be optimistic and patient with my illness but it's been getting very severe, and I don't understand why my positive outlooks and hope haven't helped? I've been to a few therapists and tried a lot of different meds but my PTSD has continued to get worse, especially lately. I have really bad depression, panic attacks, OCD, social anxiety, delusions, and disassociation. Triggers for my delusions and panic attacks can be anything death and/or self harm related, and can even be really super slight, yet still make me feel like everyone around me is dead. I've become pretty much entirely dependent on my partner, and it's really hard for both of us. I also have breathing problems and chronic migraines and nausea, plus a ton of other random physical pain almost constantly. Everything has gotten so bad to the point where it's extremely difficult for me to leave my house and do anything, even just being here, it's so hard to move and talk and eat, anything. I'm really underweight too but my doctors and I are working on that!! Lately I've been extremely disassociated and I feel like grieving all the time.
There isn't anything in particular I have a question about, but I could really just use any advice? I'm doing everything I can, everything everyone tells me. I really need help.
Thank you so much for your time!! Have a wonderful day!