I was going to ask you about your doctor and your meds. Did you know that most antidepressants cause depression? Read the labels. I don't know what he or she has you on, but I'd go over every symptom you have and check it against the warnings or side effects of what you're taking. Do you trust this doctor? I was hospitalized once, and they almost killed me, gave me brain damage, hurt my heart, my kidneys. I'm not trying to scare you. I want you to take care of yourself and know what your taking and what effects they're having on you.
I wish you all things good, and a prayer that you come back here less shaken and anxious than you are now. You deserve to live. Let me know what the doctor says. (By the way, the newest meds are the most toxic with the most side effects.)

I know how you feel. I've hidden in closets and cupboards before, even though I live alone and nothing was going on. I get that anxious. I slept in the kitchen cabinet the other night. Please tell your doctor how you are feeling and what you are thinking about doing to yourself, and include what you think of how these past hospitalizations and how they haven't helped. Are you getting any type of therapy where you can talk to someone regularly, like once or twice a week? There are rescources where, if you've been a victim of a crime or child abuse (I don't know what caused your ptsd) you can receive free therapy. That's what I do. There's always hope as long as you're still breathing. Please be safe and take care of yourself. You're worth it

Im sorry for how your feeling. i think you need more information on antideprresents. They do not make you depressed. the risk that they occurres is depression is like an up side down bell curve, a valley. when most people go on antidepressents they are at the bottom of thr valley, lack of energy to to do anything....but once they start the medication as their energy ( + or -) increases they then have the energy and cognitive ability to follow through with a suicide. Please ask your doctor to demonstrate/draw the process Ive just shared with you. That why its so important for frequent appts when medications are being adjusted... i get so frustrated with doctors bc they know this and dont dont schedule frequent appts during these periods. I will keep you in my prayers ...

Hi, there. I'm new, so forgive me if I'm intruding. But . . .

I was on medication for PTSD and related issues since 1999; Paxil, Prozac, and Seroquil, mostly. I'm just now getting off of the latter. My experience is that while some meds might bring about a net benefit, they can also cause their own problems - especially while they're being adjusted: moodiness, anxiety, or worse. I always likened it to riding a spaceship through an asteroid field. Just hang on! 'Cause you're not totally in control and your feelings are not your fault!