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mujicaptsd 10/04/2016

It's my mom's birthday today. I'd love to say that it's a happy day of warm remembrances, but it gives me a knot in my throat and it sends chills down my spine even though I loved my mom.

I was a very dutiful oldest son to my mom growing up. My mom, though, was mentally ill having come from an abusive rural home ruled by a tyrant father. Then when my parents decided to become missionaries in a war zone, she had a breakdown that turned her into a tyrant as well. Lots of beatings, lies, manipulations, and being put in danger in the war environment followed. It was terrifyfing to be my mom's boy.

Congratulations to all of you who are parents with PTSD who have stopped the cycle where hurt people hurt people and you treat your children with loving care. On this day I bless you all. You are wonderful.

Gladdmatt 10/04/2016

I'm very sorry you had to endure such an ordeal. Long story short, I was raised by four abusive women in a row, one of them being my mother who died just after my 9th birthday. Father's day is weird, too, because I never saw my father again after I was about 10 months old. When people talk about how important family is, etc. I get pissed off. I also get angry when people tell me about how they visited their mom and dad and how nice it was. I have a brother and sister, but none of us speak to each other. I never had kids because I was afraid of how I'd raise them. I'll say a prayer for you.

min63 10/04/2016

I'm so sorry I cannot image your life as a kid , I cry for the kids I see in war , I spent my young adult life protecting kids being hurt by parent those kids are still in my life today , they just want someone to hear them just be with them , I had a good childhood once away from abusive father they use to make us watch him drown puppy's in oil he was peace of shit I do not love or even care for him . I hope he's gone off earth so I agree bless good parents hugs min

Leo 10/04/2016

Puma purrs to you, Muji. There's a lot to be said for a loving mother, and a parent who doesn't enact their problems upon their children. Softness to you this day.

donnawanda 10/04/2016

I am sorry for your great sorrow at not having a mother it was safe to love. Though my mother was not as flagrant as yours, I do know that feeling.

Reading that your mom became a tyrant after being exposed to the violence of the war zone your father brought you all to reminds me of something I learned recently about Hitler - that it was the trauma he experienced during WWI that gave him his love of violence. Trauma is not just a personal tragedy, it's a pressing human issue.

Thank God for the parents who don't bequeath personal violence to the next generation.

LillyPotter 10/04/2016

i am praying this morning, Muji, and am also thankful that no matter what happened you chose goodness, this incredible goodness that is you. i am so very sorry for your pain, gentlest of hugs, Lilly

arfie 10/04/2016

Gentle empathy, muji. That schism between the greeting ideals and personal realities can create a greeting card from Hell. Gentlest of validation. "Gentle" is an critical element when one is standing on the edge of an emotional schism with a strong wind at their backs. Nice and easy does it.

Gots my rope ready. . . Snug it tight and double check the knots. Comfort checks encouraged.

silverlight 10/04/2016

Dear muji....so so sorry for all you have been through...please ignore this if it isn't helpful,but,do you think you could think of this day,to just remember what an incredible Survivor you are?

Because you really,really are.

Much peace and comfort to you.

Doo 10/04/2016

I am very sorry for all you went through Muji and this is such a hard day for you. I hope the rest of the day gets better.

Time2livelife 10/04/2016

Hugs muji.

Zoe 10/04/2016

I'm very sorry for what you went through. Take a moment and feel proud of all the accomplishments you've made in being such a kind, helpful, gentle soul. You've overcome great obstacles. Support and gentle hugs.

cheesepuff77 10/04/2016

Much Support Muji, "stopping the cycle where hurt people, hurt people"...,I say Amen to that! The hurt still hurts, but your gentle soul has broken that cycle. Gentle Hugs of Comfort and Healing♡

patti22 10/04/2016

A knot and chills...I can relate to that.

Kids seem okay so far. They've triggered triggers I never knew I had though...

BlueSky 10/04/2016

Gentle hugs, Muji. I'm sorry you endured those things. Even worse that the wounds come from your mother. I can relate to the war zone. When I was 15 we had to escape from my father's country (mom being from the US) because of an overthrow of govt and religious war. During our escape we had to hide in a safe-house so my father wouldn't find us or turn us in. My mom sort of went bonkers from it all and had a hard time when we returned to the US. Lots of support, my friend. I'm glad you are here with us to share.

mujicaptsd 10/05/2016

Blue, thanks for sharing your war story. I'm so sorry you were a kid in a war zone, too, but it's so great to know I'm not alone in that, you know? So sorry your mom kind of went bonkers from it all, too, but I'm glad you shared your support with me today. It made a difference.

So did coming home tonight and finding ALL of these supportive posts. Thank you all. It was a hard day to get through at work at times, remembering it was my mom's birthday and yet that my love for her couldn't heal her mental illness. When remembrance got tough during the day, though, I knew that I had shared here and that therefore there would be support waiting for me from you at the end of my day. I could count on it.

And here it is, all of that support from you. You are there for me. Thank you.

SunCloudJD 10/05/2016

What a lovely post muji.... I am so sorry for what you and for what many of us have had to go through.... I was actually afraid to have children... Isn't that pathetic... sigh.... big hug for you and all of the wonderful parents here....xo

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