I miscarried at 15 weeks when I was 18.
Since then, I've had nightmares some nights after a long stressful day, especially if I've seen babies a lot throughout the day.
Most of the time my nightmares are of similar themes. Either I lose my infant in a crowded store or at a beach or even if I am pregnant and go to the doctor and there is actually no baby, just an empty womb.
The other night I had a nightmare unlike any other I've had since. I'm now 21 almost 22 and in the 3 or so years since my miscarriage, I have never had such a gory and detailed recollection of my actual miscarriage. I could feel the pain, both emotional as well as physical, and I am struggling to overcome the urge to sleep with someone again in hopes of getting pregnant. I am not usually sexually attracted to men but when I feel this desperate to become a mother I am willing to do whatever it takes.
And that scares me because I am not financially ready to be a mom but I feel like I was stripped of my chance and I'm afraid there is something physically wrong with me and that I might not ever be able to have a child.
So i am "Late Deafened",having lost 60% of my hearing for high tones in both ears.Idiopathic in nature,i woke up one day,completely deaf in both ears at age 25.My hearing slowly came back,but still with that 60& loss.i can basically cope with it without my hearing aids,although women's voices are so often very hard to hear.But i also have what is called "sudden sensiornerul hearing loss," which...
In 2010, my therapist finally suggested that I estrange myself from my family because they've been my primary abusers since I was a little boy. The abuse started with wife beatings by my father on my mother, then spread to his beating me bloody, and eventually apparently spread to my dad's workplace, too. I was estranged from him at the time because of another of his violent...