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when i point a finger at you, there are three fingers pointed back at me. ~anon
early in december, 2023, local politics catapaulted me into a ptsd psychosis. i don't much care to type out those gory details just now. the important piece is that the resulting skirmishes cost me friends. the intrusive thoughts are focused on justifying that loss. justifying the loss of friendship is ? ? ? yucky mucky, at best? the politics attached make it unwise to associate with this particular group. nothing personal, my former friend. just trying to keep my little ship of fools afloat on these stormy sees.
methinks the psychosis has been contained, but those intrusive thoughts continue deviling me. methinks they need closure. my current effort is what i call, "the finger pointing exercise." in this exercise i visualize the person/people my intrusive thoughts are attacking in front of me. i point my hoary finger of blame at the visualization and let them HAVE IT!, no holds barred. in this step, i strive for a clear focus on the issue within the intrusive thought. i then lift my hoary finger of blame to contemplate the three fingers pointed back at me. these are the points which pertain to me. up close and personal. insert serenity prayer here.
dios, concedeme la serenidad para aceptar las cosas que no puedo cambiar
valor para cambiar aquellas que puedo
y sabiduria para reconocer la diferencia
just sharing. . .
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
I hope that you feel that serenity really soon.... xo
and serenity is a gift to be cherished, even when i can only maintain it for a moment here and a moment there. one moment at a time.
The thing is, though, I don't have the energy to keep track of my grudges over time, and as you say about the 3 fingers pointing back when you point your finger at somebody mostly whatever I point out wrong with somebody else I've got wrong with me, too. Then as to "I told you so" moments, you've got to have a good memory for those, and I don't any more.
So fortunately I'm just not equipped with the energy and stamina required for being this particular kind of horse's behind, so I have to stick to the less taxing ways of being one. And the world is a little bit better for it.
i have been too involved for too many years to enjoy the luxury of keeping my eyes closed, i can maintain safe social distances between any and all illegal activity and my three orphans. for now. the situation continues escalating and who knows what the future may hold.