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FF Having Security Escort to Class for Safety
At the college that student who quit coming to death and dying class at midterm last fall and earned an F that way came back with a vengeance yesterday out of nowhere and disrupted a class he's not even in. Today he sent me a threatening email which I forwarded to my boss, so I'll have a security escort to my classroom tomorrow.
My PTSD's hypervigilance alarm sirens have been stuck on the "ON" button all day. I took myself out to dinner as a treat and finally got myself to think about something else by around 8pm after dinner.
On the up side, a tough ex-Marine Iraq War veteran who is a death and dying student of mine stayed after class today for an hour to say he was getting a lot of healing in class. He even got tears in his eyes. Great moment.
Another death and dying student of mine came by my office with her husband to show me her newborn baby, too. Holding the baby was awesome. Another great moment.
So I'm trying to remember the positives and not just the negative. But I'm worried for my safety and frightened tomorrow, I have to admit. By the way, I have to teach on the 2nd half of the lesson on the second of the five grief stages--anger. Oh, boy. This is hard.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.

Good things gravitate to you for all the good things you say and do. Best to you.:)
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Inside my strictly personal skin, over the course of dealing with my own rage --rage enough to frighten gentle academic types (amends needed)-- I have come to believe that anger is *just* fear, all grown-up. Rage is anger out of control. Is it possible that teaching about the anger phase of grieving while under the influence of fear might lead to extra insight? I wonder often how the Elizabeth Kubler Ross book has remained the reigning bible on grieving since 1969. Not to diminish her brilliance, but when I read about her, I don't get the impression she thought her work was ready for an international altar.
Brain fart over. It is now safe to remove gas mask.
Continued support while you work it through, muji. Feed the good stuff and stay brave in the rest.
Thanks, everybody, for the wishes for a safe class today. For me personally the issue is the struggle with my own PTSD triggering hypervigilance. When those alarm bells and sirens are triggered in my head, it's hard to concentrate on anything else, much less be a leader. I'm kind of proud that I did get those alarms to turn off so I could concentrate on something else last night, thought it took until 8pm. Again, sigh.
I find myself looking forward to Spring Break already. It starts March 11th. That's a month from this coming Saturday and I'm off to Mexico again. Yay.
It did turn out that our new community college chief of security knew the young man who was threatening me, and so he headed him off before my class. I am SO relieved!! I just taught class and went home, I didn't try to find out anything more. That'll be for tomorrow. Like I said, for me personally the issue with this sort of thing is the struggle with my own PTSD triggering hypervigilance.
When those alarm bells and sirens are triggered in my head, it's hard to concentrate on anything else. That's why I missed an appointment I made with a different student to tutor her today--I just can't concentrate. She's a good student, though, and I sent her an apology, she'll be ok and will reschedule. If that's all that happened after being threatened, that's a win in my book.
Zoe, that's so cool that you were an Associate Vice President at a university! Wish you were my Assoc. VP. Having someone in high office who understood PTSD personally would be amazing.
Sorry there were 3 shootings at your university. We had a case of arson in our college housing yesterday. A young woman got angry that her boyfriend cheated on her, so she set his clothes on fire in the college apartment complex and caught the building on fire. Me, I've only had a tire slashed once this semester, and a year ago a student poured acid on the hood of my car.
A colleague who teaches business was stabbed by a young woman while sitting at his office desk, though. He survived but it was awful. She got an insanity plea. We have another young woman in the city jail for stabbing her boyfriend. She's facing an attempted murder charge, so we'll see.
I'm staying as careful as I can be. My boss, security, my Distance Learning aide, my colleagues, and a lot of other people know about the student's threat. I'll see if security has anything to tell me tomorrow. TGIF, that's for sure.
Glad your tools got you through a tough day. I'll count that as a "Win," with you. Anybody can do the easy days. Congratulations. Well done.
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Blue, thanks for the tip on never saying "ex" about a Marine. I've got 2 wonderful Semper Fi guys in these classes right now, and I love them. I can't wait to see the one today that stayed after class Wed. and had that chat with me that was so earnest that he allowed tears to rise to his eyes. They're tough as nails but gentle men, too.
In fact, he'd been in my class last semester until he cut every class from midterm on. He just appeared out of nowhere on Tuesday and demanded to be able to take last semester's tests now in this semester.The administrator asked for attendance records to see if he had come to class, which was odd to me since he wasn't enrolled.
I could oblige, though, since I take attendance that I can't manipulate by having students sign in. I was able to submit the whole semester's class by class sign in sheets with his signature only on the one from the day he appeared unannounced on Tuesday and left slamming the door.
I think he'll make noise, but said signature documentation is likely to be the end of any actions over my head he attempts to initiate. Which leads me to marvel at the chutzpah of his making claims I could disprove so clearly in black and white. I'm sure, though, that you could regale me with even taller tales told to you as a university VP with deep, urgent, earnestness, innocent eyes, and a straight face.
I didn't realize from my vantage point in the classroom how much of a bigger target you university VP's are: cars, lock changes, burglar alarm systems. Yikes.
Thanks for sharing that so that once again I could say here that I'm not alone when my PTSD gets rattled. Much support back to you.
Now I'll treat myself to something this weekend, just as you say. Yeah. :-)