We are trying to do that. She needs to be open to help. She needs to seek help/treatment in the outside world. I say this w/ all kindness in my heart to lovemydogs. We are giving her what we've got, she needs to make sure she is taking it to heart.

Anyone heard from her lately. I am more than concerned for her safety.

I can understand her situation. She is afraid to got to the hospital. Anyone remember their first trip to the hospital....it is scary. She has another problem. She is a nurse, so checking exposes her to her employer and she fears for her job.

Having said that she has to get help and checking into a hospital would ensure that. This is not something she can handle on her own or we can help her with. It is beyond this group. Just my opinion.

I hope the silence is because she checked into the hospital. The panic she had sent chills because she sounded like I felt just before I went to the hospital. I was also making a choice to live or die and could no longer live with the pain.

to anyone i have caused pain to because of what i said i am deeply sorry and saddened for my selfishness. i dont think you realize the small community i live in and there isnt adequate training in the facilities you would like me to go. i have tried every possible remedy i can find for this problem yet it still keeps coming back. as a nursei would not receive care i need but would be caring for the people there already. mental health in our country is 95% inadequate. that is why so many of us struggle and imagine the ones not even being counted. all i am asking for is your help and advice and some one to walk me through those moments of disaster, just as i would for any of you. Please accept my apology and you can find out what happened to set this off if you read my other post...my worst day...i am sooo sorry

In my opinion there is no reason to be sorry. You were crying out for someone to listen to you and care. I think some people on here were way to hard on you. Not to be disrespectful, but I think 51percent....you are wrong. This is supposed to be a SUPPORT group. Yes, we have all been there, that is why we should be more understanding when someone else is going through the lonliness and despair. I, for one, hope I NEVER become so cynical that when someone cries for help I throw up my hands and say "none of us can do anything" or "She wants to die, she will die and we won't even know about it". If I can help someone who has gone through what I have, I will do it....rather it "triggers" me or not.

MY rant for the day.......

i have been there more than once..it is very hard..it becomes hard to focus on the better parts when we have endured so much pain..its not that we want to die..but we want the pain to stop..suicide seems the only answer a lot of times..we lose focus on our loved ones..the ones that will reap from what we have done..our judgement becomes over welmingly cloudy..i hope lovemydogs2 will try her hardest to over come this obstical..much love unasanada