Triple hugs tough. Sounds like a long tiring day you had and your emotions are worn out. Often we care giver types do end up feeling alone when we ourselves find the need for care. I have learned to have lower expectations of others and to give without expecting it to be returned. Its much less disappointing and I feel I can give completely from the heart now because I dont expect reciprication.
I am also learning now, right now, how to be my own rock and lay down a stable foundation for myself by relying on my self to pick me up when I fall. And honestly, having DS and the support of all the people here who understand what we go through cause they go through it to and so they are sincere in their caring helps a lot and makes not having anyone in my non internet life to rely on but myself not as scary as it could be.
I hope being here at DS gives you some support too.
I also have done therapy which really helped me get to this place. I dont know your situation, but if you havent tried therapy, i would suggest you spend some time talking to others in therapy and see if you want to try it too.

Tough, I don't know what's going on with me either. I was up half the night with insomnia last night, and I've been sick so I needed my rest. I'm trying to go back to work today tired now, and I've got to teach all day plus my night class tonight, too. 9am-9pm work day. In between, I have an hour's drive each way after my school day ends to see my doctor about this stomach flu I've had for 12 days now. What was my insomniac PTSD brain doing to me?

Thank you for the support I do appreciate it. I can't stop thinking about stuff that has happened to me. I have finally realized I can only relie on my self. I have one friend that helps me and cares but I feel bad because she has her own family and things going on. I cried so bad last night that I cried my self to sleep. I'm always feeling like Im being used. But that has been my hole like. Feeling lost and just done feel like its time to give up. Mujicaptsd hugs hope you feel better soon. Hope work goes fast so u can rest up. Being here helps and having your support. Question. Does any ever site there and ask why, Why has this happened to me?

Oh yes. Absolutely. I think it’s all part of the mourning process. We mourn our own lives , what we missed , why was stolen, what will never be because of what was. It’s a process and it’s okay to admit all your feelings as you have them. Be kind to yourself when you can and just know that you have a right to all your feelings and to process them. Therapy helps you to not get stuck on any one of them too long that it becomes a deeper rut to get out of. And know that others have similar emotions and journeys, you are not alone. Triple hugs