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Emotional meltdowns daily from the abuse!!!!!

tonyaabernathy
tonyaabernathy
I am well into the divorce process now.I have to say, I want to be feeling better by now, but I am not better at all. I think what is happening to me is that the numbness that I have lived with for so long in order to survive has finally left me.But now I am so angry, bitter, sad as if every emotion to be had is going through my mind and body every day now. I believe the numbness was there for so long for me to be able to survive, I truly mean it , and now the flood of emotions have come!Oh my this feels so raw, it is so hard to handle and actually go about my business and my life and be a Mother as if I'm not screaming on the inside.I really feel like I am a mental case right now.I know I must feel some of this to get through but I didn't realize how painful it would be.I guess if you avoid your life for ever and then come to the truth of what it really is ,it will be an emotionally train wreck.I am also finding that I'm scrambling for coping skills to .I want to get better not bitter!I want to be happy that I am away from such an abusive husband,that has made me feel so crazy.Please if anyone has suggestions, feel free to give advice. I feel as though I'm scrambling to find any form of information that I can find, to get me through to the other side of this and to a sane, normal peaceful life.Free from abuse and it's effects.
icewolf6
icewolf6
No magic pills I'm sorry, but check with your Dr. I have found help from some medications. I to spent years in avoidance and have nearly self destructed as a result. There are options out there for you. It sounds like you have already taken steps to free yourself from the worst of it.
Take strength from caring for and bringing your children into this world and not bad memories!
You will make it!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I remember that rawness feeling so well. It was so painful it made me physically sick. Have you been to the doctor, a counsellor? You need some emotional support, a friend to talk to, are there people there for you? You will find lots of support on this site. You have survived the worst, and are a very strong person. Try to deal with things a little bit at a time. Meditation will help. Writing out the emotions helps. This site has and still helps me with emotions, http://www.emotional-times.com. Have faith in yourself, you can get through this. I did. Have hope. Sending your lots of hugs and prayers.
wep
wep
Yes I can understand your emotions. I'm not married but it was still hard for me because last year the problems (divorce between my parents too), life here at home has seem upside down. I told my mom that it seemed like when her and my dad got a divorce, there was a terrible door of my mom's past opened. Hugs to you Tonya! I can relate with far as with emotions but I was never married or have any kids.