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Toughassteele
Toughassteele

Well when I thought things were charging and looking up something else happeneds. So I broke up with my boyfriend he was getting to crazy and not careing going to jail alot and over the years I have delt with all kinds of abuse. Well he came over to get his things I ment him out side and gave him the bag of clothes. He then poured gas all over me I went to run as I was screaming I slipped and fell landing on my back that hurts already. I got up fast and banged on the door to get inside he left and he went to jail. But he told me that if he can't have me no one can. I'm scared because so much has happened to me I have been beaten down. I'm in so much pain already. I can't take it any more I can't sleep my stomach hurts I'm nurves a the time. I loved him so much I feel stupid. Why me why now 

EvergreenDreamer
EvergreenDreamer
Im very sorry you are going through this tough. Violence in relationships is so dangerous, i can totally understand you being very nervous. I hope you can find people to support you emotional and who will also help you get information on how best to protect yourself. Many will tell you to get a restraining order , but honestly while i support that step, i can also say they only put offenders in jail they do nothing to protect the victim, so please find shelters, organizations, law enforcement officials, family friends whatever you need to help you keep far away from the individual in question. I understand you feeling upset with yourself, but truly this happens to many people. Its not because you were stupid to love him, its because he is a dysfunctional human being out of control. Please keep safe. Many cities have shelters that protect women from domestic violence situations. Triple hugs of support
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Holy cow, Tough. That's some chaos, isn't it? It happened to me, too. I got away from my chaotic household when I was 17 and came up from South America to the States all alone. Yet though I put 6,000 miles between me and my mayhem-oriented family of origin, I seemed to go on to have relationships with people like your boyfriend for years going forward.

It was the relationship pattern I was familiar with, you know? What I did about it was, once I got safely away from those relationships to take a break from relationships for some good self care for myself for a change. Hope you get to safety quickly so you can care for yourself after all of this. Sending you lots of support.