Yes, as I get closer and closer to executing my plan to leave I am also getting an odd level of anxiety.

I am coming to realize it's because I don't know how he's going to react! At least if I stay I know what I'm going to get.

Thank you for the encouragement, I have had a much better day!

Whenever there is more stress in my life, my ptsd is always worse. I have much more anxiety, im extra jumpy, nervous, dwell on thoughts and bad memories of the past, feel bad about myself....even though im in such a good place now.

I just remember that there are good days and a few bad days sprinkled in there too from time to time. It happens and its ok. We've all come such a long way in our own experiences and we keep going!
Hang in there friend ;)

Thanks for commenting, and the support don't know were I'd be without DS, and you all.

I will get paranoid especially when I wake up in the night.And I do jump easily.

I would suggest a safety plan with the leaving part and support network of safe people where ever you are living. Careful who it is, as many well meaning people have made bad decisions for the welfare of others and do not understand what your true reality is. I used to work in a domestic violence shelter and have seen a lot I never would have believed if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes. Very careful with who you have your safety plan with.
I also get worse PTSD when I am making changes in my life to take over the control of my own life. It's a security thing, and just because a relationship goes bad doesn't mean we don't still care about that other person. Keep it real simple and trust your gut. I know I have my power back when others who have liked the control are getting worse. They need to be in control of others to have their own sense of security. To have a true sense of security we must be in control of ourselves only, responsible for ourselves, and accountable for our actions and the effect they may have on others. No one will take care of me , but me and my God, Spirit whatever u wanna call it. Be well , be safe, and live your life for yourself.
In Love Light Truth & Service,
'Stubborn' TerrieAnn
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Great support and feedback. Yes, my symptoms came back strong ten years after therapy. Last October I started back in therapy. Glad ur here.

Great support and feedback. Yes, my symptoms came back strong ten years after therapy. Last October I started back in therapy. Glad ur here.

Hi I'm new to this group. I'd like to share that Ihave had a lot of the startle reflex going on for the last two weeks . after reading comments on this post , I see it all clearly now. I left a meantally/verbally abusive man and went to safehouse 20 years ago. Now my daughter is planning to leave her H. So im scared for her Also if I may add, My 17 yr old son passed away 12 yrs ago in january. The wind was blowing fierce that night as it has all this week now. So my ptsd has been on overdrive and causing me too be extremely jumpy . I hope it goes away. Thanks for letting me share . Im really sorry if I rambled God Bless and (((comforting hugs)) L.