I’m sorry you’re struggling Toughassteele. I used to feel like I could survive anything after abuse, and other traumas. I never expected that before this year anything could happen to me that could be worse or more difficult to handle than all the things I had already been through. I’ve had PTSD since a child but I’ve never had PTSD like what I have now after surviving anaphylactic shock & cardiac arrest. And of all the types of trauma I’ve survived, that honestly should have been the least traumatic.

But I learned this year just how much trauma builds upon trauma, how one PTSD ties back to everything before it. The symptoms and effects I am struggling with now are just from the trauma this year but of every trauma that came before.

This year I got a very hard lesson in just how much the mind can take, how much before my ability to cope, heal, handle was broken completely by just one more thing.

The thing is tho, for many of us it is never just one thing. For some reason it always seems like it doesn’t just rain on us but hails, turns into arctic blizzards, hurricanes and flash flood with landslides all at once.

We all have limits though. There comes a time when we get sick of telling people we are fine, that we can handle it. There comes a time when we’re just too exhausted to be the strong one anymore, too tired of fighting, too weak to even bothering to pretend we can handle it anymore.

It’s a hard place to be, a hard thing to deal with once we reach that point.

I don’t know if any of this brings you any comfort or help, but you’re not alone. Many of us here have been in our own kind of place where you are at the moment.

I’m here for you if you ever need a friend, support, or just someone to talk to.

Healing & soothing thoughts, & gentle hugs.

Thank you that does help I just wish I can forget about things and not stress on it. Thank you again and hugs back

Did a new thing happen to bring this about? The beatings, the pain, the shame? Please figure out a way to get away from the abuser. There are places to help. Many hugs.

The only thing that has changed or that's new is the body pain and it's hard to handle for me because I have so much more I'm dealing with that one more thing got put on my plate. I'm just having a rough time right now. Not be abused right now blessed in the past I was my parents my ex husband and a ex boyfriend. Thank you for caring

Steele, Most of us have hit that seemingly bottomless pit. Physical pain combined with all the emotional pain is a vicious circle. We are very vulnerable when in physical pain. You will begin the slow climb back up. You have that strength and resilience. Healing, calming and comforting hugs.

I’m sorry how you feel & I empathize,
You are not alone
Gentlest of gentlest hugs <3
(((((Toughassteele)))))

Thank you all I know thank you all for the support it's appropriated. Trying to work through this and stay strong

With you Toughasnails. Gentle hugs. Not going into details but like many here I am thankful for what I survived. Hugs

Hugs back and thank you

Thinking of you, Toughassteele, and sending you support today.

Thank you I appreciate it