Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group
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I'm beginning to realize that maybe all of my relationships with others are very codependent. I was codependent on my drug addicted fathers sometimes there sometimes not so much love and presence in my life. I'm still unable to form friendships and especially relationships that are healthy. I'm very untrusting and when I do fall in love or become good friends with someone I try and hold on to them as though it's life our death. I hate being alone but have gone from being outgoing to awkwardly shy. I want friends but I've always felt a little different and wondered why anyone would want to be friends with me even though I've been told I'm smart beautiful and kind... My mother was very cold and we went through a lot of struggles together but as I got older I only became a burden. I was adopted at birth and my adoptive parents I think thought I would complete their family but they so had major issues of all kinds lurking beneath the surface. I'm a good person but I feel weighed down by the pain life can send. I was just wondering if anyone else has any of the same feelings. I was searching for faith, and still have been, religion/God wise, and started to wonder if I can't feel what others who are healthy feel because my intentions are codependent... I need things and people to make me feel okay. I know this is so not right but it doesn't change. I'm mortified of not having friends so my best friend is a mean selfish irresponsible girl I no longer have much in common with.. My boyfriend is emotionally abusive and has also been physically in the past. I stay because I want to be loved and feel OKAY. I've struggled in the past with a pill addiction, and although I'm sober and stay away from pills, I still smoke. I feel that's a codependent unhealthy habit... I just don't know how to get past this. Any book movie blog recommendations? Thanks y'all :(
I failed 2 grades when i was young. Grade 1 because i was sick all the ime and grade 3 because my older sister's class had given the teacher a nervous break down. There were 6 of us that failed. Being 2 grades behind my peers I never fit in. The class I was supposed to be with called me stupid and refused to hang out with me and the class I was in called me stupid because I failed. I was nver invited to parties or accepted. I thought this would change in the working world, but unfortunately I don't have social skills and people tend to hate me because I am different. I just don't belong. I had found ways to cope with this and manage until I got PTSD. Now my world is turned upside down and I cannot hold a job, I seem to be falling between the cracks for help and I am having trouble with deparession and anxiety. I pray for cancer to end my pain, but no....I seem to be on earth to suffer. God I must have been a very bad person as they say what comes around goes around.
Do you see a therapist? If not get one? Your picture shows you as a very pretty girl and I am sure you are smart. You need to break the cycle, leave the abusive guy, stop the pills and find a purpose in life. What do you like to do? Could you help others like yourself? Maybe you could beocme a therapist?
Good Luck