It funny, I was in the parking lot of a supermarket this morning and I just starting crying from missing my brother so much. He came home from DaNang Viet Nam with severe PTSD. He died about 4 years ago because he just gave up on life. He died of heart failure but he had given up. So I want to share with you tender feelings of compassion for the Viet Nam vets who never got the credit that later warriors have received. You sound like a good guy who can recognize the hardship others face all the while facing your own. You've been through (and I afraid to say) will continue face a lot of hardship. But like you said just keep getting back up. And give all you can to others on the board, that seems to help me. Take patience and care with yourself.

It is all fine and good to want to sacrifice everything to help people in need, but we have to look at things reasonably.
I believe in God, too. I believe if He had wanted you to abandon everything and go help the people in Joplin, He would have made it so you could go.
I went to a workshop this weekend. A woman who had worked as a naval seal came and spoke to us. She has PTSD unrelated to her job as a navy seal when she had to assist in recovering bodies and so on.
She said everyone has their own 'cocaine' to cope with PTSD. I don't know what her cocaine is. I know what mine is. It is not cocaine. In the meantime, I am working through my PTSD,
I went through inpatient treatment for PTSD a few years ago, but I can say I have never had such help as from this site.
I am so sorry the Veterans from any war have so much trouble getting help for and handling their PTSD. I suspect most of them didn't get the help they needed because they were too proud to ask, and they thought getting help was for the weak.
Getting help for our problems shows great courage, not weakness, and there is honour in recovery. One should bever give up before persuing every avenue. It take courage and the pinoeer spirit to go into unknown territories.
God bless you. Keep the strength. Ask God for courage and strength, and He will show you the way.

im glad you know and have learned how to progress with handling and treating PTSD through your own expierences and learnings that you bring to this support group.All i can do is try to stay positive wich Im having trouble doing.There faces wont leave my mind.I hold myself and keep tapping the alphabit into my sides.Ive been doing that forever but there were no faces till now. Beleaving in God and his help is the hard part.but i do ask him her higher power everey day.

What comment about Joplin people having it harder??
Was it in a post titled "why me?".......................

Because i made a comment about why abuse, distaster anything happens to anyone.But did not mean it as a comparison of any kind at all.
They are totally two different things, abuse of a child is probably even more tragic as it could be avoided.here natural disasters can not.

If is my comment you are refering to, i did not mean it like that at all.I tell myself that again not as acomparison but as a reminder that noone planned for me to get abused like noone plans anything bad to happen to anyone.
It just happens, evil people, tornados, ect................

My heart goes out to the Vietnam Vets. In this country, Australia, there was no public support upon their return. In about 1987, they had a homecoming parade, god bless them. My dad was a Vietnam Vet of sorts, he used to operate on the wounded up there. He was badly affected too.
As for child abuse, that is utterly horrific. If you are coming to terms with childhood sex abuse, then you need and deserve all the compassion and support that's possible. I hope you get it.

Stay on this site and you will learn a lot. In the meantime, share your hurts just the way you have done and journal. Stay in the here and now and ground yourself, be acutely aware of your surroundings. And, most of all, pray for the strength and courage to do what you need to deal with this. It will happen.

Im sorry that i was feeling the comments from out side my forcefeild were being negative.Im stupid for not realizing they were positive feedback.I feel varry uneducated at times and hope others who have been here can help my brain that is starving for information and support can deal with my Juvenile like outburst.I only want to heal myself and take advantage of whats available but theres so much clutter in my life ifeel like ill never get there.I know the quick fix like im use to doing is not going to happen. I cant jerryrig it.

Don't be so hard on yourself. When we feel guilty, it is because we have done something wrong and we can apologize and possibly make things right. PTSD makes us think we are the mistake so that we cannot just apologize or make things right. This is called shame. It is horrible feeling so ashamed.
PTSD is a horrible disease, paralyzing, baffling and debilitating in most cases.
We with PTSD have to find ways to heal. The ways to heal are coming on to this site, forming support systems and seeing a therapist. Make sure you do all three.