First I go to my therapy interview to see what my options regarding therapy are and if they can give me a proper trauma specialist as opposed to psychodynamic pychotherapy....then me and the Bloke are meeting up with an old friend of mine that I recently got back in touch with, who I haven't see for 20 years....in town but not in a pub any of the idiots go in so should be safe....I hope I'm not taking on too much in one day, though God knows I will be crooning for a pint after talking about my shit with the shrink...not planning on going on a bender or getting messy with this friend, only want to spend a couple of hours in their company to beging with, just to see if we still get on ok now like before and if we can find some common ground about our experinces (they havent had it easy themselves since last we met)...want to take things slow, and see if he really is as nice as i remember him to be...it's awkward as he is friend's with my other friend's abusive ex husband....so I want to see what his attitude toowards men who abuse their wives is, and why his own marriage broke up....believe me if i get even the slightest whiff of toxicity or dyfunction I will just have the one pint and leave....I can't always trust my perceptions about other people especially men....which is why I am taking the Bloke with me, if I miss something I can be sure he won't....funny how I am more nervous about meeting the old friend than the therapy interview...don't know why this should be so, probably because I know what to expect regards the therapy but I don't know what my old friend will be like in the flesh...ha, last time I saw him my son was 2 years old and still in his pushchair...and before that when we were 21 and sharing a flat with our respective partners....we met at the same workplace...a group of us 19/20 year olds would go to the pub round the corner for drinks after work...had some great times...no doubt we will reminisce about some tomorrow...and i have a feeling a few war stories...