Well a Psych hold may help. Are you BP too?
Or is this something else mixed in?
Does this happen when you are out of your med routine?

It seems you recognize tt this is not normal behavior.But it is very serious and triggering to those here. So if you can share some , maybe we can offer some methods to help.

Have you taken the halperidol, your normal dose? Celexa?
I have seen you much more control than this. Your Bi-P meds need to be maintained.

Hows the job search going?

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hey there, it's great you are aware that this isn't "healthy".

Whether it's the bipolar or intrusive thoughts which are more akin to "pure O" form of OCD I don't know.

We've had a number of members bothered by these and they are always the most horrific and often taboo thoughts that people get.

You might want to think about that 1013 again or if you can talk to a professional to get an opinion that would be good.

Not sure what meds they are but if they are a mood stabilizer type then one day missed will not be too much of a problem, just remember to take them in future.

You're welcome to come over to the bipolar board - maybe post in the crisis centre? You may find others have had similar issues and can give you some practical advice - although I suspect it will be to get urgent attention. You are probably not a danger to others but it is very distressing for you and I know previously you felt you were a danger to yourself.

I say there are things such as demons that can come with certain types of abuse and I am saying that my abuse was steeped in the occult and very satanic. I did not remember my abuse I asked the Lord to save me I repented of my sin when I was about 10 years old .I forgot my abuse and they did not want me to know or remember my salvation. So I always felt defeated. When I was being abused I would witness and tell them about Jesus. They needed to know also. I would never remember in my day life. I was made to do things I did not want to do. I had a things I was holding onto because I thought they had some good meaning. I had to let them go and I broke them apart and felt so good. Some of oppression left. I am having things even as a Christian that I am oppressed with as I remember for me melt away layers are coming off. Jesus was the only one who helped me. Noone else could. His guardian angels. These are not of God. For whosoever shall call upon the Lord shall be saved." Romans 10:13 All your problems will not just go away . You will have the best helping you. I am married and have two beautiful children and not perfect by any means . I will pray for you right now that you can gain the victory. make sure you call someone if you feel like you are going to hurt yourself and make sure you are safe. Psalms 23 and Psalms 91 are great verses. Take your meds. :)

Big hug for you Blaze... I hope that you've sought help sweetie... Sometimes it's hard to know where to go

I agree with fish though... On the BP board a lot of people have intrusive thoughts and it's a good place to find people who have 'been there'

I hope that you have sought professional help... Going into the hospital can be a great thing as we get help 24/7 and I have found that I know I was brought to stability so much quicker then a once a week appt

Another big hug for you and a blessing...x