It shouldn't have to be that way. Can you go down to the A and E, with the pills that you want to take, and tell them you want to take them? Then maybe they could help you without you hurting yourself. It's got to be better than overdosing.

Then go to the ER and tell them that you're suicidal. My guess is that's not really so much what you need. I suspect that you really do need attention. (I never understood why "attention" got such a bad rap. When my kids wanted "attention"....I gave them attention? Just like I'd give them food, or water.) Now, 17 years later...I think that attention is probably 100,000,000 times more of a NEED, than food and water. Food...you can live without for weeks if not months. Water...hours if not days. Attention...attention really can't wait...or shouldn't.
On the other hand, even though it's not visible. Caregivers don't get a bad rap for not providing it.
Sigh.

I agree with Ash and Patti. If you need help or attention or both, go where you can get what you need. I hope they will help you, because you have been working super hard and deserve all the help you need.

I would say you need help. When I wanted to overdose myself, I needed a lot of help dealing with my emotional pain, depression, rape, suicidal ideation, etc. And also attention. Please keep searching for a person who can provide that help.

I have tried suicide four times and failed during my healing. The hospital will not turn you down because that's what they do. It does not matter how many time you go there, there for you just like we are. You go where you need help. And if it here we are here to listen.

Scott

Yeah, I agree that telling the ER folks about suicidal feelings is better than acting them out to get help. Not just for your physical wellness, which is obvious, but because you've spoken up to us here, and so you've kind of rehearsed for it.

If it were me, it would be a sign to myself that even though I went to the hospital, I did learn to speak up for myself. And you know that's important to me, like it is to a lot of us here, to find our voice.

So I agree with those who suggest going to the ER and telling them like it is. Much support to you tonight, my friend.

I can only go by my own experience,and I have been so sure I will never feel good again,and it passes,another sufferer said to me,dont be afraid of feelings,cause thats all they are.I hope so much that you find some relief for your pain.