Thurs night I had all 3 classes I teach meet at my community college gather and hear a guest speaker. All 3 classes are for nursing students about the care of dying patients. The speaker wrote a book about grief in 1997, but when she spoke Thurs night I found out she just lost her adult son to a heart attack he suffered in front of his three elementary school aged children. So it was a good and real evening but intense with grief.

Since I live alone I wondered what to do to unwind in a healthy way today. I live all alone in my little 1 bedroom apartment in my small city like some hermit. I push to get myself out once a month to the city 2 hours away to ball games and concerts even without anyone to go with. I don't make as much money as I used to before I lost my job in 2011 when PTSD crashed me and I got kidney damage, too. Since I got this lesser paying job, I have to be smart about the cost.

This time I bought a $20 ticket to a comedy club and went all by myself!! First time ever. When I got there the manager seated me up front, too!! It was a bucket list evening. I saw comedian Todd Glass, a comedian I'd seen at home on Netflix. I got to shake his hand after the show, too.

Sunday I speak at another church about the healing we do here at DS PTSD (coming out myself but guarding everyone's anonymity, of course). So Sunday will be serious again, like Thurs night was. But I'm kind of proud of going out to laugh, too, this Friday night.