Sounds very similar... I think im having one right now... everything around me feels weird, and i see the past event in my minds eyes, and i get an intense feeling and i start to feel trapped.... its really weird.... I dont feel like myself at all... and my vision feel kind of jumpy... if that makes any sense....

Leah, Sounds like you had a flashback. They are really common with sex abuse and with other kinds of PTSD too. I hope the worst has passed now. You can heal from this it just takes time and work. I know it's painful, and I'm sorry you have to go back in the past against your will and feel it over again. It's painful. You can actively address your wounds with therapy or you can just suffer and not get better. Those are really your only options. EMDR is talked about all the time on this board as the most effective help for this.

I guess what is consistent for most people about flashbacks is reliving some aspect of the trauma. I've had them with no memory per se just overwhelming emotions of fear that make me fall on the floor I'm so overwhelmed. Another time just recently I relived my abusive step father coming back to my home after being away for a year. I was nine or ten and the time and I'm 56 now. I saw him clearly in my mind and felt the feelings over again like they were new. 51% talked about smells and tastes. There's variations different for everyone but it's about reliving the trauma. It sounds like this is what happened to you. Keep us posted on how you're doing. Peace.

Sounds like you have had flashbacks, you can also have emotional flashbacks where you only feel emotions, but can't put a situation to them, common with cptsd. The emotions are usually of the painful sort. Learning grounding skills can help you learn how to pull yourself out of a flashback or let it pass. When I dissociate, my family says it's like I zone out, but do stuff like hide under the bed or in the closet, because it's like it's really happening again. Hang in there with work you can learn to cope with PTSD and work on healing.

I have flashbacks and I have nightmare/flashbacks... When i have a flashback It is b'coz I am not taking my meds or something happens to trigger it.
But I am back in the same situation I was in back then, same place, same time, same people/person and same thing happening to me.
I have no grip on reality what so ever. In fact I have no idea what is happening in the here and now.
When I have a nightmare/flashback it is the same except in happens in a dream like state and I am sucked into it.

This is just my experience, different people may have different experiences I don't know I have never really done much research on it.

i never knew there was sucha thing as an emotional flashback, now that i know rthis concept exists i can put a name to thise sudden feelings of blind pain.

i learn more here then ive learned from the professionals.

Emotional flashbacks. That sounds like what happens to me when I'm triggered by common ordinary things, like a woman being very pushy....or is that common? Heartbeat speeds up, heart skips beats, I'm acutely aware of danger. Do not know how to re-act, what to say. I just want to get out of the situation that seems innocuous to anyone else around me.

Often with PTSD it is common that a person suppresses memories because they are too traumatic to process - thus later on when their mind see something familar from that event ( a familar scent, hear a familar sound/ voice, see's a familar face, peice of clothing.. ect) they are "triggered" and their memory is sparked, kind of like "Daja Vu".

For me it comes it flashes, or like peices of a puzzle. I will hear something ,or see something and just stop in my tracks.. knowing i have experienced this before, but can't remember it.

That is our mind , supressing the memory.

Sometimes we will NEVER remember the FULL event. Sometimes it will come back slowly in peices.

I too get anxiety. The nightmares are the worst, b/c you often cant remember what you just experienced, or why you are afraid.

When I am triggered, I don't necessarily go back to a paricular moment of pain, every day with my mother was painful, my mother was a sadistic cold type. She didn't show love. So women in particular trigger me...all they have to do is be pushy or something that reminds me of my mother...I'll have an immediate aversion to this person and want to remove myself from them. Can't get away fast enough. Immediate heart rate increase, etc. Unfortunately this happens a lot in church. It is like the world is my enemy. I don't trust too many ppl. Have a lot of trouble socializing.

I have these as well. What I began doing is trying to stop the moment I feel my heart start pounding as though is could leap out of my chest. I get my journal or a piece of paper and write down what I am feeling and what thoughts, action, or visual seems to have triggered this episode. Writing helps me get through it and it does a lot of good to go back and read, since sometimes my inner protective instinct is to forget. It also helps to identify the various triggers so you can either avoid them or at least be aware and prepare yourself as much as possible. Of course, all this is easier said than done, but we have to start somewhere. It is also good to write down five things that make you smile - for me they are things like looking at certain pictures, smelling flowers, putting on lipstick... etc. I reach for one those things, knowing I will laugh or at least smile and for a few minutes things are better. Reliving the past is horrible, and I dont like giving my mother so much power over me to the point that I can still feel broken even though she is thousands of miles away from me. My life should be mine and so should my feelings. God has granted me His peace, so I try as much as I can to experience that peace. I pray you can too.

I would suggest getting into the therapist if the flashbacks become uncomfortable or that hurt you. hugs...