I'd say that sums up *very* well where we've all been at!

I'd certainly encourage you to create your own profile and list your meds. We all share what has worked and hasn't worked for us. Sometimes the very meds you are on can make you feel worse. Look at my profile and you'll see all the meds I've tried! It took the PTSD cocktail to make me feel better.

Once you have a profile of your own, I'd encourage you to check out www.CarrotofHope.org and www.Sidran.org to learn even more. :)

Sometimes PTSD'ers have 'Control' Issues, and of course Anger Issues.

Through Healing, hopefully you can sort through those emotions/feelings so you are not feeling so angry all the time, and feel the need to raise your voice, hit yourself, yell...

Have you tried EMDR?? Check out EMDR.com

Yes, I encourage you also to make a profile of your own on here....that way we don't get confused, and you can put your meds on your profile...and it helps to see what's working and what's not working.

how do i create my own profile? i'm kinda confused.

Hi there! Welcome to Daily Strength. Congratulations on your bravery. It takes guts to visit and post something so personal. Good job!

Control is a big thing for us, isn't it? I think it's because the things that happened to us made us feel helpless and out of control, so now we feel we need to be "in" control to stop the symptoms. It's a tough one. Having the courage to come on here can help you start to get better.

The first goal isn't to make the symptoms go away... even though you think that would be the first goal. It's actually to learn to cope with the symptoms better. When you learn what your triggers are (the things that bring on your symptoms) you can learn to anticipate when you'll have symptoms. That in itself makes you feel more in control.

You can learn a lot about that from posting here and reading others' posts. We're all learning from and teaching each other. This is a great group. We really understand, because we're working through it ourselves.

If you want to create a profile, here's how:
On the left side of this screen near the top is a menu. There's a line that says "Profile" and next to it, "edit." Click edit and it will walk you through creating your profile.

~ Wistala

You don't want to hurt the people around you ~ you could end up putting them in the same state as you (A PTSD victim was the reason that I have it now) BUT ~ try not to be hard on yourself ~ you are having a natural reaction to an unnatural event in your life ~ you have escalated fight or flight response to stress. I found that walking and bringing myself into a more positive state of mind with self talk has been VERY helpful in getting control of my anxiety attacks. When you get angry or anxious ~ figure out what works for you to get yourself calmed down ~ that I think is the key to getting it undercontrol.

Hope that helps, good luck

"i do like raising my voice and yelling"

Well put. I like the sound of things breaking (cups, glass, ceramics) although I know that it's wrong, it's a pleasant sound to me. There's nothing wrong with letting it out, we just have to do it in a way that doesn't hurt others. I like breaking the clay pigeons made for shooting ranges in a pit somewhere. Maybe you can hop in your car, hit the highway and just scream. Suppressing anger never helped anyone darlin. I believe in you.

Brandi, I *totally* think breaking things is cool. I would break old glass that was in the recycle bin and then sweep it up. As a teacher, I taught students to break water balloons, and then we cleaned them up. Those are all healthy releases. As long as you are finding contained ways to release, that is better than involving a living thing, right? ;)