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I may have mentioned that when I first open my eyes in the morning I feel like crying. I have some sort of intense emotional pain.
Lately I have not been sleeping well. I feel like it is a light sleep and I will periodically feel that deep emotional pain.
Last night I decided that instead of pushing it away I would try to let it come and maybe learn more about it so I can fix what is wrong.
I let it come over me and told myself that I would be ok. Deep breath in.....hold.....breath out.
What I had always thought was depression turned out to be fear. I am very afraid of something. I don't know what. I didn't get that far. i had to keep reassuring myself that I would be ok no matter what.
I did get out of bed today. I managed to get dressed. God knows i ate. I didn't do much else though. Played with my new phone, surfed the web. Scary feeling is coming back.
Lately I have not been sleeping well. I feel like it is a light sleep and I will periodically feel that deep emotional pain.
Last night I decided that instead of pushing it away I would try to let it come and maybe learn more about it so I can fix what is wrong.
I let it come over me and told myself that I would be ok. Deep breath in.....hold.....breath out.
What I had always thought was depression turned out to be fear. I am very afraid of something. I don't know what. I didn't get that far. i had to keep reassuring myself that I would be ok no matter what.
I did get out of bed today. I managed to get dressed. God knows i ate. I didn't do much else though. Played with my new phone, surfed the web. Scary feeling is coming back.
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I feel so dirty and used I was drunk and passed out at a party when I came around some guy was on top of me rapeing me he covered my mouth and told me to shut up afterwards he got up and got dressed and said I better not tell anyone I found my friend and reported that I had been raped after having medical checks and them getting DNA I've taken the morning after pill IAM just so depressed and...
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Upon his departure, he remarked, "I am in many people’s pockets; no one will believe you." Have you ever grappled with the silence that follows sexual assault, where the perceived impossibility of being believed necessitates self-censorship?
I feel a food binge coming on.
All day I have been practicing mindful eating. I write down what I eat, the time, my mood, if i was hungry and if i felt full after eating. I am not supposed to surf the web, read, watch tv or do anything but focus on the food when I eat. Those are the only rules. I can eat what i want. Oh and the goal is to only eat when i am hungry.
I realized today i don't know when i am hungry and maybe I never let myself get hungry. It scares me to be so out of control. I'm trying not to judge myself. i'm just trying to learn right now. I feel scared and alone though.
Thanks for the link. I read about half. It was hard to read. I feel all those things almost all the time now....even in my sleep. I bookmarked it so I can read more later.
I am speaking for myself, but think maybe it's true for you too.