In Feb. 2007 I took myself to the e.r. After suffering from extreme back pain for days. After a night of testing, I was told my appendix was rupturing. I was to have emergency surgery. My dad came to the hospital just before surgery. When I woke up, he told me that it had not been an appendicitis, but that a tumor had ruptured my appendix. I asked if I had cancer and was told they wouldnt know for a few days. I had already had cancer in my leg less than two years before. It turned out that I had appe.dix cancer, an extremely rare cancer. I ended up having two major surgeries, both involving an 18 inch abdominal incision. Since that night in the e.r. I have made several trips to the e.r., all of them for valid reasons related to the appendix ca. However, there are times when I feel the need to go there and be seen, and I don't know why. It has been five years. To make matters worse, I can actually SEE the hospital from where I live. In the beginning, every detail of that first night in the er that led to my cancer dx played in my head like a nonstop movie. Although that has gotten better, sometimes I feel the need to go there and it makes me scared because I don't know why I am having these feelings so long after the fact!!!!! Can anyone help me out here??? I am fighting the feeling to go in right now. Night time is the worst time for me, when I feel the need to rush to the er. Thank u for listening!!!!!