I've been going through that for almost 20 years... avoiding the therapy because it was too hard to talk about. I would have really bad flashbacks on the way to therapy. But for 20 years I have had no life. Mostly living without any real connections to anyone, not even to my family. Then I met my ex boyfriend, and we have a daughter now who is 17 and a half months old. And I miss having those connections, I miss having a life, and I miss feeling like I fit into this world. I want to be a better Mom and to get my family back again, my parents and siblings.

Remember that with therapy, eventually you pass through hell and into the real world, a much better world than it has been so far. And that your relationships will improve, and that for the first time in a very long time, you get to step outside and be in the world, without fear and pain.

Have Hope...
Lisa