My husband and I have been married for a little over a year, dated 4 years. I had our little girl Sept. 8th this year, she was 2 1/2 weeks early but they induced me for medical reasons. I had gestational diabetes and I was also in silent labor, dilated to a 6 and 60% effaced. Labor was only 2 hours with 20 minutes of pushing, all natural. She got stuck at her shoulders cause she was sideways. As the doctor pulled her out she broke her collar bone, as well as my tailbone. (guess that was payback for not feeling my contractions), 8.11lbs and 20 1/2 inches, so of course I tore. Anyway, when she was born I went into shock. My body was shaking so bad my mom had to hold me down. We had to stay in the hospital a little longer to make sure I wouldn't hemorrhage and that her health was okay too. The first night, I couldn't feel any emotions. I did cry when they handed her to me, but when they took her away again to check her blood I went numb again. I didn't sleep for the first 5 days, not a single wink. I just watched her sleep all day and all night. But she isn't the problem, I love her with everything in me, I'd do anything for her. But since she was born I just feel almost like I hate my husband, and I don't know why. He's a good dad. He keeps trying to help, but I don't want him to. I don't want him to hold her. I don't want him to warm her bottles. I am sleeping upstairs on the couch with her bassinet next to me. I don't want to feel this way, i don't want to lose my marriage. Is this something that will pass, or how do I fix it??