Hi Hun,

Is there any way you could get to see the doctor sooner? What you describe sounds exactly like Post Partum Depression. The anger, the desire to be left alone, the feeling of inadequacy as a mom and the feelings that your husband may and should leave you - These are all symptoms of the illness. It would be best to try to get to the doctor sooner and try to go onto meds.

You're not crazy and you aren't alone.


C.

You're not crazy, but I agree with Claresmom, see if you can get in earlier, the sooner you get help, the sooner you can start getting better. You know your body and mind better than anyone and when something isn't right you know it, so definitely talk to your dr.

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If your appointment with OB is in 2 weeks. Make another doctor's appointment. Your OB doctor is okay but you have 2 weeks to wait. 2 weeks is too long. That last appointment is to "check" you out of pregnancy anyway.

Make an appointment with your General Practioner. Tell the person who makes your appointment why you are making this appointment. Tell the person that you would like to have a complete physical and full lab work done. I believe that there is a definite relationship between postpartum depression and physical deficiencies. You may have low/high iron, or be hypothyroid. You may even be deficient in B12, vitamin D or some other vitamin. You may or may not need medication but your General Practioner can determine what next steps should be taken from your behaviors and physical symptoms. Remember that your health and wellbeing matter. Please take care of yourself first. Don't be too hard on yourself.

Another mother of 4 who understands post partum depression.

You sound just like me after having my son. I thought that my husband and my son would have been better off without me; they should find another wife and another mother that could treat them so much better than I was able to at that time. I had never been a person who was so anxious, angry, emotional, or depressed as at that time in my life. I felt so out of control because I was supposed to be happy and enjoying my life and I just couldn't. I couldn't pull myself out of the hole that I had somehow dug myself into. I waited much too long get get help(18 months--chalk that up to selfish pride and ignorance) and I regret that I wasted so much of my life and my son's childhood because of it. I was one of these people who thought that antidepressants were for those people in life who were just so sad and had to result to those means. Little did I know that I would be one of those that really needed and benefited from them. Prior to having my son I was so happy and content. I took Cymbalta and within a week I was a COMPLETELY different person. It changed my life and probably saved my marriage to be completely honest. For my next child, I will be alot more aware and upfront with how I am feeling because you can never get back the time you've lost--even if it's only two weeks. Let your doctor know ASAP so that you can get to feeling bettter.

And I also agree with sueshue, get some labs run as well because there could also be an underlying problem as well. (In my case I had Rheumatoid Arthritis as well which was making me feel even more tired and in pain.)

Best of luck to you,
Misty

thank you all for your answers.
mistylove,thats my problem.I havent gotten help yet because of my pride.I feel like I should be able to do it myself.Its embarrasing to admit that I need help.But I know I do.And I will get it.Some days are so much worse than others.I have had a few good days and actually thought maybe its gone.But then I have one of those horrible days to remind me that it doesnt just go away..

Just to update: I talked to my doctor and he gave me anti-depressants.He said I may only need them for a few months.I am back at work and starting to feel better already.

Thanks everyone for your advice.

I'm so glad to hear you're feeling better hun. You'll go from strength to strength now. Yay, you!


C.

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Make sure you dont take yourself of the medication though, make sure you talk to your dr about it first, i made that mistake, i was on meds for 8 months and took myself off them, and it was the worse thing i could have done :( Even though you will prob feel better dont go off them!!

Glad your feeling better already though :)

Hey there, what you are describing is pretty much exaclty how I felt after my first was born and what I am starting to experience again. Maybe a trip to the doctors as soon as possible is a great idea. I found that once I spoke to my mother in law she became an absolute tower of strength for both my partner and I, so maybe talking to family is also something to think about. You don't know just how helpful and understanding they may be until you speak to them an let them know what's going on. I also avoided phone calls but that also stopped once I sort help. So good luck, you are not crazy, there are alot of us out there.