I am sorry if none of this may make sense I am trying to wrap my mind around what I am now going threw so please bare with me but I thought if I put this out there then maybe someone may have advice and maybe I am not at such a loss like I feel like I am. 

I am new to this whole wanting to get pregnant and having an issue with getting pregnant. I am not activly trying right now but I am not activly not trying kinda letting things happen if they happen mostly due to the fact that me and my fiance are in a long distance relationship for another year or we would be more activly trying. I was diagnosed with PCOS years ago and the reason I was diagnosed was  I was missing my periods or i would have them and they would be horrible. So when my dr at the time tested my hormones and we found that the progesterone level was abnormally low for the phase of my cycle I was in I didnt think much of it. I was only 20 at the time and not wanting to get pregnant anyways, so when I asked him what that meant and his response was "dont worry about it till you want to get pregnant" I didnt think much of it, I honestly just thought that it meant that I would have issues getting pregnant not what I now realise is damn near impossible now that I am with the man I want to build my life with and have a child of our own. (Yes I also know that there are many ways to have a child of our own but I always wanted to carry my child and now I am having the realization that that may not be the case for me.) Also something that I struggle with is on my fathers side there are alot of blood cloting issuses which I know the chances go up in getting them when you are dealing any hormone suppliments. Its one of the reasons my drs never put me on birth control for my PCOS (also know that birth control is not a cure for PCOS). I am not sure what else can be done for people who are in this situation. At the moment I am in the mind set of "Does this really happen? Is this really a thing for woman to struggle with?" I know infiertility is a thing and something we struggle with but I never thought that that would be me. I dont know if what I am feeling is normal or if I am being dramatic so I hope this is infact a safe place to put these thoughts down. But foes me having low progesterone levels really mean that I cannot get pregannt and if by chance do get pregant probably will miscary because my body cant keep it viable due to this one hormone? 

If anyone has any advice or info on this I will gladly take it (I may have questions) but I would like to hear from people who struggle with this and maybe I wouldnt feel so alone... 

Thank you for reading my word vomit. <3