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I don't understand this at all really. It doesn't make much sense to Me. As Terrible as My BF has been to Me - after EVERYTHING He's put Me through since We First got Together back in 2004... ** just as a kind of Side Note, We've been ON and OFF since then, for the Most Part OFF **...
STILL when I find out that He's going behind My Back, and aggressively flirting with Another Woman... IT STILL HURTS ME !!!!!
WHY should I care IF He goes after Someone Else ? Especially since it looks like it MAY potentially end up with Him LEAVING ME for this ONLINE SLUT !!
I know DEEP DOWN in My Soul... in the LOGICAL PART of My Brain... that He's NOT WORTH FIGHTING FOR ! BUT STILL, it really HURTS that He's SNEAKING AROUND ON ME, obviously !
Even right now, He CLAIMED that He was going OUT for a Walk to go check on where He can get Parts to fix His Bicycle, BUT I can't help but think that the MAIN REASON for His " WALK " was to go CALL HER on His CELL PHONE !!!!!
As I've Posted in a Previous Discussion Topic, I've FOUND PROOF of Him Messaging this Other Woman A LOT through His Tagged.com Web Site. I even got VERY BRAVE One Day, and I flat out TOLD HIM that I know about Him messaging this Woman - ( JULIE M ) - A LOT through Tagged.com ! PLUS, I even foolishly added that I KNOW that He's been telling Her that He wants to CALL HER on the PHONE, and how much He WANTS TO FU*K HER too !!!!!
THANKFULLY... He was so BUSY denying it ALL, that He didn't take a Moment to figure out how I knew ALL OF THAT ! He still hasn't said anything about it, so I'm positive that He hasn't figured out that I can see EVERYTHING He does on that Web Site. IF He EVER found out then I'd be AFRAID of what He might do to Me !
With ANYONE ELSE I would feel Very Guilty about checking up on Them like this, BUT since He's OBVIOUSLY been LYING TO ME, then I don't see a reason why I should feel guilty about it at all ! I WISH He would be HONEST WITH ME ! BUT LATELY I wonder IF that's even POSSIBLE FOR HIM !!!???!! I kind of Doubt that it is !
The MAIN EXCUSE for ALL of the Messages back, and forth, between Him and JULIE M. was that SHE is a BIG FLIRT, AND A SLUT ! He was pretty much putting it ALL ON HER ! FIGURES ! He's always good at blaming someone else for what He's been doing !
So where does this leave ME ? I wish I knew.
ALL I know is that ALL of My Friends tell Me that I should get RID OF HIM ! One of Them even just Last Night told Me that HE was going to call the Cops on My BF if I didn't ! WHY I did it, I'm not quite sure, BUT I pleaded with Him to NOT DO THAT ! I told Him that I wanted to make the Decision on My Own, because IF ANYONE ELSE did it for Me then I'd probably still be " hanging on " to the false HOPE that Things could still work out between Him and I. I tried to explain to Him that it's UP TO ME, and NOONE ELSE, what I'll do about My LIFE. It took a LOT of explaining to make My Friend understand. He couldn't get that I'm still in a " State of Confusion " in a Way, at this Point, because I still tell Myself that I LOVE My BF... AND because a Part of Me still hangs onto HOPE that Things will work out between Him and I. NUTS ???? YES, I guess that it probably is NUTS at this Point for Me to even begin to think that Way.... ESPECIALLY AFTER This Past Weekend - ( ** See My Latest Journal Entries for details ** ). At One Point in My Conversation with My Friend Online Yesterday, I even told Him that the NEXT Time My BF goes for a LONG Walk, I'll consider calling the Local Women's Shelter for Advice. I still may do this, at the VERY LEAST it would be a Person to talk to on the Phone that'll understand what I've been going through. BUT this still doesn't help Me right now. Confronting Him about what I know, I don't think will help ANYTHING at all... BUT then on the Other Hand, staying Quiet about it is driving Me NUTS !
STILL when I find out that He's going behind My Back, and aggressively flirting with Another Woman... IT STILL HURTS ME !!!!!
WHY should I care IF He goes after Someone Else ? Especially since it looks like it MAY potentially end up with Him LEAVING ME for this ONLINE SLUT !!
I know DEEP DOWN in My Soul... in the LOGICAL PART of My Brain... that He's NOT WORTH FIGHTING FOR ! BUT STILL, it really HURTS that He's SNEAKING AROUND ON ME, obviously !
Even right now, He CLAIMED that He was going OUT for a Walk to go check on where He can get Parts to fix His Bicycle, BUT I can't help but think that the MAIN REASON for His " WALK " was to go CALL HER on His CELL PHONE !!!!!
As I've Posted in a Previous Discussion Topic, I've FOUND PROOF of Him Messaging this Other Woman A LOT through His Tagged.com Web Site. I even got VERY BRAVE One Day, and I flat out TOLD HIM that I know about Him messaging this Woman - ( JULIE M ) - A LOT through Tagged.com ! PLUS, I even foolishly added that I KNOW that He's been telling Her that He wants to CALL HER on the PHONE, and how much He WANTS TO FU*K HER too !!!!!
THANKFULLY... He was so BUSY denying it ALL, that He didn't take a Moment to figure out how I knew ALL OF THAT ! He still hasn't said anything about it, so I'm positive that He hasn't figured out that I can see EVERYTHING He does on that Web Site. IF He EVER found out then I'd be AFRAID of what He might do to Me !
With ANYONE ELSE I would feel Very Guilty about checking up on Them like this, BUT since He's OBVIOUSLY been LYING TO ME, then I don't see a reason why I should feel guilty about it at all ! I WISH He would be HONEST WITH ME ! BUT LATELY I wonder IF that's even POSSIBLE FOR HIM !!!???!! I kind of Doubt that it is !
The MAIN EXCUSE for ALL of the Messages back, and forth, between Him and JULIE M. was that SHE is a BIG FLIRT, AND A SLUT ! He was pretty much putting it ALL ON HER ! FIGURES ! He's always good at blaming someone else for what He's been doing !
So where does this leave ME ? I wish I knew.
ALL I know is that ALL of My Friends tell Me that I should get RID OF HIM ! One of Them even just Last Night told Me that HE was going to call the Cops on My BF if I didn't ! WHY I did it, I'm not quite sure, BUT I pleaded with Him to NOT DO THAT ! I told Him that I wanted to make the Decision on My Own, because IF ANYONE ELSE did it for Me then I'd probably still be " hanging on " to the false HOPE that Things could still work out between Him and I. I tried to explain to Him that it's UP TO ME, and NOONE ELSE, what I'll do about My LIFE. It took a LOT of explaining to make My Friend understand. He couldn't get that I'm still in a " State of Confusion " in a Way, at this Point, because I still tell Myself that I LOVE My BF... AND because a Part of Me still hangs onto HOPE that Things will work out between Him and I. NUTS ???? YES, I guess that it probably is NUTS at this Point for Me to even begin to think that Way.... ESPECIALLY AFTER This Past Weekend - ( ** See My Latest Journal Entries for details ** ). At One Point in My Conversation with My Friend Online Yesterday, I even told Him that the NEXT Time My BF goes for a LONG Walk, I'll consider calling the Local Women's Shelter for Advice. I still may do this, at the VERY LEAST it would be a Person to talk to on the Phone that'll understand what I've been going through. BUT this still doesn't help Me right now. Confronting Him about what I know, I don't think will help ANYTHING at all... BUT then on the Other Hand, staying Quiet about it is driving Me NUTS !
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