Of course I'm second guessing,that's what I do! Every time I think of getting away from my Narc,Alcoholic Husband I start questioning myself, always! I get so tired of my own thought process it is just crazy.I don't like my Attorney, he is a N himself and it is obvious.But he is very good and aggressive as hell, like my husband himself, and he knows the law too!But I hate being in mediation with all these men, they are all assholes to the 10tth and they intimidated the hell outta of me.We have been here before, but didn't finalize it, we tried again at his request!Damn I wish I would have stood up to him then and gone through with it. But I didn't at lest I can say to my children that I did everything possible to make this marriage work! and I have for 25 years, I have endured his abuse all in the name of Marriage, family, my children, wanting to do the right thing, pity for my child abused husband, Forgiveness and damn have I had to forgive crap I never ever should have in retrospect!If any of you have any advice to help me stay strong and stay on track I would so appreciate it.I am weak and when I am, I usual give in to it! My husband has bullied me and intimidated me for so long and I have given in to him for so long that it is just my way,He is this huge mean intimidating man not only to me but everyone else too.So help me stay focused on what is right for me and my 11 year old daughter,whom adores her Dad but he is all she knows.She doesn't know what a good man is,which makes me so sad.My own father is the sweetest most precious man ever.My daughter is caught up in making Daddy happy, and showing him her love so that he will stay home with her she has abandonment issues from before with him and also, he being a control freak, N, alcoholic he works her into feeling sorry for him .