Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
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I wrote this in my journal and I wanted to share it with everybody here. For years I struggled with leaving. I never ever thought I would be able to do it. I would hear about other people who left and I would wish I was that strong but I didn't think I had it in me to finally leave but I did and it has been 9 months now...
Nine months ago I walked out the back door of my house and locked it for the very last time. I have never looked back. I have not even laid eyes on my ex since he left for work that evening. I have no regrets. I know I did the right thing. I finally have come to realize that I deserved none of the abuse that I endured for 20+ years. I am worth more then that and I am not a fat, ugly, stupid bitch that nobody likes. I am so much more then that. I am me and I am proud of that. I have made it on my own. Everything I have bought, everything I have accomplished, everything I have done in the past 9 months I have done it on my own. I have been blessed with such wonderful family and friends who have been so emotionally supportive.
I struggled for years with leaving. I was so scared to be alone the rest of my life but today I can honestly say if I never met another man I could go through life happily being by myself. I am finally happy with me and where I am in my life. I enjoy doing my own thing, spending time with my family without having anybody to answer to. I can come home put my feet up on my couch and watch whatever I want to watch on my TV. I can talk on the phone when I want, I can go to the mall when I want, I can eat what I want when I want. I have nobody calling me names, spitting on me, pushing me around. I can look in the mirror and smile. I can hold my head up high and walk tall knowing I am finally me again.
I no longer cry myself to sleep every night. Sure I have my bad days every now and then but I have learned to pick myself back up and move on. Nobody can keep me down. Nobody can hold me back from living my life and accomplishing my dreams. I am responsible for my own life. I could never go back to living the way that I did for so long. I have grown so much in the past nine months. I will never allow another person to treat me that way ever again. I may have lived in fear for the past 20+ years but from the moment I walked out that door that day things have been so different. I may not have all the material things I once had but I have my life and that is worth so much more!!
Life is so good...I am thankful for every moment I have! It makes me really proud to say that because it wasn't all that long ago that I thought that my only way out of it all was to end my life.
Thank you to all my friends on here who have been so supportive. To the ones who are still struggling, who are scared to make that move, who don't believe they can do it...you are worth it...you deserve so much better...never stop believing in yourself and never ever ever give up!!
Nine months ago I walked out the back door of my house and locked it for the very last time. I have never looked back. I have not even laid eyes on my ex since he left for work that evening. I have no regrets. I know I did the right thing. I finally have come to realize that I deserved none of the abuse that I endured for 20+ years. I am worth more then that and I am not a fat, ugly, stupid bitch that nobody likes. I am so much more then that. I am me and I am proud of that. I have made it on my own. Everything I have bought, everything I have accomplished, everything I have done in the past 9 months I have done it on my own. I have been blessed with such wonderful family and friends who have been so emotionally supportive.
I struggled for years with leaving. I was so scared to be alone the rest of my life but today I can honestly say if I never met another man I could go through life happily being by myself. I am finally happy with me and where I am in my life. I enjoy doing my own thing, spending time with my family without having anybody to answer to. I can come home put my feet up on my couch and watch whatever I want to watch on my TV. I can talk on the phone when I want, I can go to the mall when I want, I can eat what I want when I want. I have nobody calling me names, spitting on me, pushing me around. I can look in the mirror and smile. I can hold my head up high and walk tall knowing I am finally me again.
I no longer cry myself to sleep every night. Sure I have my bad days every now and then but I have learned to pick myself back up and move on. Nobody can keep me down. Nobody can hold me back from living my life and accomplishing my dreams. I am responsible for my own life. I could never go back to living the way that I did for so long. I have grown so much in the past nine months. I will never allow another person to treat me that way ever again. I may have lived in fear for the past 20+ years but from the moment I walked out that door that day things have been so different. I may not have all the material things I once had but I have my life and that is worth so much more!!
Life is so good...I am thankful for every moment I have! It makes me really proud to say that because it wasn't all that long ago that I thought that my only way out of it all was to end my life.
Thank you to all my friends on here who have been so supportive. To the ones who are still struggling, who are scared to make that move, who don't believe they can do it...you are worth it...you deserve so much better...never stop believing in yourself and never ever ever give up!!
I am a year out, and have started a new relationship - but I don't know whether I'll actually ever want him (or anyone else) to live with me, now that I have learned to enjoy living with myself.
Long gone are the nights crying silently as he slept. The evenings spent in fear of what he might do. The fear of watching the wrong thing, saying the wrong thing. Having to eat what he wanted to eat, whether I wanted to or not - or not eating because he wasn't hungry or was punishing me for something.
Best wishes to you - you can do it.