This I sometime think where the problems between men and women began..
I came here looking for advice.
For so long the World has be dominated by a Male crafted society...
As the World changes, it seem to be a slow process to find an equal ground men and women can meet on...
Men like me...were taught very simply, barefoot and pregant..
Sad aint it..
I was raised by my grandmother..I wont bore you with the details...of daily beatings...cussing...belittling...neglect, in the 60's they didn't take me to a doctor when i broke... can't beat a child and not break something...
oh any way...
at 7 I started reading the Bible... and this here fellow named Adam...well it says in the good book...that his wife, or helpmate, gave him some forbiddin fruit to eat...
When God found out they had ate this fruit...Well...
Adam says... This woman you gave me....!
Well there you have it...Men blaming women for all that is bad in this World..!
So I try not to get to bent when I read.. all men are....????
See my grandmother, beat me till I'd pass out... and beat me till I come too ... claiming I was faking... 8 or 9 years old... broke my spirit early in life.. emotional scars so deep and vast... it's scary...
them doctors tell me I'm an angry old fart...told me that when I was a kid too... you are an angry young man..
Well hey didn't I have a right to be angry..?
I had this big mean woman... telling what a sorry little piece of white trash I was... and that she'd kill me and tell God I'd died...
Not one in my whole life have I ever felt like or stated All Women are...
It is just my opinion mind you ...if we can get beyond blameing all men or all women... and put the blame on the person that is at fault..
Maybe if we as men and women... would take the time to teach our children... together how our mistakes can effect their lifes...
Awe... such is life to Dream...
yeah I yelled at my wife and kids...carefully...wording things as not to inflict emotion pain... in my old age I realise.. yelling alone was BAD..
So I made mistakes...
sorry mind wonders....off... hello...hello....hello...
I hate being compared to all males...some men realy try...
some men realy don't...
my grandmother, she destroyed a small child...renderd him to the world confused, alone, an emotional wreck...
I have no resourses but to admit... I am a failure just like she said I'd be...I suffer chronic pain..constant as the morning sun...disabled beyond haveing the ability to earn gainful employment...
I can blame ... my Grandmother, my Mom, and my ex...who after 25 years of marriage...says ... I want a divorce.. your fat, uglly, and I am tired of puting up with Your disabilities....
but I don't... that Old man I face in the mirror... that is the one and only person responsible for all the bad choices I've made in life...
I really need some help dealing with the future... but the past wont let me be...such is the curse of PTSD...
don't find much support in that group either...
The one thing that does keep me going.... is i've lived a very blessed life...
just each year I get older... more afraid...lonelier...
so here I am... doing one day at a time...
hoping I wont regret this post...russ