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Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.

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ishaRelive 07/05/2009

Today I read his blog- the one he has created for me...After reading it..I didn't feel anything..The content was same like everytime..He was immature and is feeling so under confident and He did love you madly (Once I had asked him that does he loves me madly..His ans was-I LOVE YOU BUT NOT MADLY)..Anyways..I just realised what sick games he used to play everytime I had decided to go and then once I was in his clutches again I was left to survive all alone and looked down upon every single second....

What does this mean??I mean this is the first time when I read through all the lines he has written for my eyes so that i relent and go back to him...But I could see through the fakeness..I could see what he is actually missing..A victim to torture so that he can become stronger each day while I die a slow tortured death every single day...

Is this good or bad??I have stayed away from my abuser for about 45 days and I have never felt this calm and confident in my life...

calmzone 07/05/2009

It means you've learned enough about their behaviors to see him for who he is. I was able to eventually do this with mine. I've done the same...I went from crying and being sad, even feeling sorry for him while reading his 'let's give it another try' emails to just rolling my eyes when I'd get one. I've been able to reduce him to something very small in my mind.

This means that you are taking steps forward in your recovery and caring more about yourself. Keep it up!

Please delete his blog information, it serves no purpose for you to keep exposing yourself to him. He is not worth anymore of your attention.
Agree, it feels so much more peaceful without them in our lives...I like this feeling! Congrats on 45 days!

deleted_user 07/05/2009

Its called the persuader tactic, what does he mean he loves you but not madly? I used to be told I was loved but not as much as before and then he told me he didn't love me but then changed it when facing being thrown out. They are very devious and just say what they do so they get their own way. I know it hurts that these people are so false and just use us and we feel thats all we are good for. When we are in the grip of it its hard to see it for what it really is. try keeping a journal then look back at it and you will see it clearer than in the moment when you feel emotional

ishaRelive 07/05/2009

Thanks Calm...I can really relate to what you said...You really helped me as I thought 'what's happening to me??'..I used to be all sad reading what he used to write...But you are right..I have to stay away from his blog..Thanks a tonnnn for your support...

Thanks June..Yes..Saying I love you but not madly was one of his way to torture me and make me beg for his complete love..He even said that I love you but not that much...Now when he is blogging away that I always loved you madly..All I can think of is that what a big looser he is...I feel soooooo free...

IleneW 07/05/2009

STAY FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

deleted_user 07/05/2009

45 Days? Awesome! Keep on moving away from him, one step at a time, one day at a time!

ishaRelive 07/05/2009

Thanx Heal and Susan...for your wishes...

hockeymom5592 07/05/2009

Yep, you are seeing him for what he really is, from the new vantage point of freedom. And isn't it wonderful, to realize he has no power anymore to hurt you???

Like Ilene says STAY FREE!!!!!

Hugs....

ishaRelive 07/06/2009

Thanks HockeyMom...This sure is a new feeling...It feels great... :-)

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