Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
Odd place this morning. It would be - should be scary. But it isn't.
I'm not numb, but I'm not fighting the pain anymore. It's going to happen, no matter what I do, no matter if I do the right things or the wrong things.
Monday, there was my wife and I's session.
Yesterday, my individual session. I won't be meeting with him anymore after this month. He acknowledges that her behavior should not continue, but wants to focus our time on making sure I am communicating properly.
Immediately following that, an anonymous person posted a comment on my blog informing me that the girl who was my best friend is about to be asked to be married by the man who hates me and keeps threatening me physically and legally. Asking me how it felt to know that I was a failure, that I'd never see her again, and that she'd spend the rest of her life in his arms, and that he was going to turn her from her faith, and it was all my fault.
This morning, I recieved notice that the administrative hold on my financial aid never got processed, and I'm a month overdue, and owe almost two thousand dollars. I can't even afford to pay ten dollars to them right now.
No one is responding to me. I'm alone. Well, almost no one. My wife is, of course. I haven't responded to her yet. I know there's no support to be had there. Not unless it benefits her.
I"m so glad I started the anti-depressants a month ago. I can't imagine the agony being much worse than this. But I'm going to stop fighting it. I'm supposed to be in agony right now. I don't know why. But I am.
Somehow it doesn't hurt as much when you don't fight against it.
Thanks for listening.
I'm not numb, but I'm not fighting the pain anymore. It's going to happen, no matter what I do, no matter if I do the right things or the wrong things.
Monday, there was my wife and I's session.
Yesterday, my individual session. I won't be meeting with him anymore after this month. He acknowledges that her behavior should not continue, but wants to focus our time on making sure I am communicating properly.
Immediately following that, an anonymous person posted a comment on my blog informing me that the girl who was my best friend is about to be asked to be married by the man who hates me and keeps threatening me physically and legally. Asking me how it felt to know that I was a failure, that I'd never see her again, and that she'd spend the rest of her life in his arms, and that he was going to turn her from her faith, and it was all my fault.
This morning, I recieved notice that the administrative hold on my financial aid never got processed, and I'm a month overdue, and owe almost two thousand dollars. I can't even afford to pay ten dollars to them right now.
No one is responding to me. I'm alone. Well, almost no one. My wife is, of course. I haven't responded to her yet. I know there's no support to be had there. Not unless it benefits her.
I"m so glad I started the anti-depressants a month ago. I can't imagine the agony being much worse than this. But I'm going to stop fighting it. I'm supposed to be in agony right now. I don't know why. But I am.
Somehow it doesn't hurt as much when you don't fight against it.
Thanks for listening.
No matter how hard it may seem I am a firm believer in god will not give you more then you can handle and just when you think you can't handle one more thing, he is there to lift you up.
Take good care of yourself. Sending lots of strength and encouragement!
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A lot.
But I handled it anyway. Lost my faith, perhaps, but handled it, in part because I gave up hope of anyone ever making it better. I had to make it better. Nobody else, physical or spiritual, could make my life better, until I chose to do it.
God won't make your choices for you. Only you can do that.
Hope it helps a little.
I agree with all the others too. Try to stay strong. Clarity will come, just try to see it, that is the hardest part when you are in the midst of the "storm".
Sending strength and encouragement! =)