Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
It does sound like you need to escape, if nothing else for awhile.
I was married for 36 years, the last 16, being a personal maid and I truly love living alone, but NOT being lonely. I can do what I want, when I want. I have no desire for a relationship, I am content and peaceful and that is the way I like it.
I really hope you can find happiness and peace in your life as well.
I am hoping when escaping is important enough to you, you will achieve it. You can do anything you want, if you want it badly enough.
Take care
Sending support and hugs
The best antidote is to take good care of yourself.
I hope you will.