I came to DS a very long time ago. I was grieving the loss of my husband. I got much needed support here. I then attempted to move on with my life. Then I came back recently to try to reach out. This time to find support for the loss of my second husband, who just happened to be a psychopath. I ended up being so confused and so distressed, that I walked away and let it go. I couldn't express the pain I was feeling or the loss that had occurred. And make any sense. My head is just now starting to clear up a little and I hope to run into someone here who endured the same or close to the same situation I have. I live a very isolated and alone existence, so reaching out is some times very difficult for me. I have no family connections and a work friend. So my support is extremely limited. I found myself in a slightly unique situation. The person who ended up being me torturer for 5 years, until he died. Was someone I met on this help site. He was one of my supporting friends. I made the mistake of trusting him and opening myself up to him. Because of course he knew all the right things to say. I had no idea, until it was over and done with, that it had been a game from day one. I am so disappointed in myself for not knowing what a red flag was. And not knowing to run from it. I became the puppet on a sting, dancing to his ever whim. Just trying to make him happy. And now I don't know how to cut the strings!