Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
Well I posted on here about a month ago talking about my abusive ex boyfriend coming back. I dont understand why I am so in love with a man who hurt me basically made me go through a nervous breakdown. About a month ago we started talking again after 8months of no contact. He was talking nice at first then he went back to his old ways calling me names and just trying to be controlling so i told him we needed space so we didnt talk for like a week! THEN he calls me crying because he says he cant live without me and why am i doing this to him. Then he says if you just text me at least once a day just to say hey or something I will feel better. WEll stupid old me I felt bad and text him later on that night asking if he was okay. He told me no and he couldn't beleive I was treating him the way I was! He said I was talking to him like he was nothing to me and I was his world.Oh and he said why do I hurt him he loves me and he cant help that and so on and so on BLAH BLAH. It seems like this boy has voodoo on me because I was like baby I do love you and I said that i never meant to hurt you. Why did i say that when I didnt do anything wrong? So after all that we had a long talk the next day and everything was all peaches and cream. We were pretty much calling eachother all day. He was just being so sweet.So then he calls me a couple of days later and I was with my mom so i didnt answer. So I called him back an hour later and I was really upset because me and my mom got into a huge fight and the first thing he says is "why didnt you answer the phone and I was like I didnt have my phone. Then he says well why didnt you have your phone on you what were you doing and I was like why are you questioning me! So he hangs up in my face.
He went back to Mississip for his brothers wedding so I didnt hear from him for a week after that. WELL I went on his myspace page and come to find out this son of a bitch has a girlfriend! I was like all that bullshit you were telling me and you have a girl. He didnt make it seem like that to me. Im not going to lie I feel for everything he was telling me. I was sooo hurt. On the bottom of the picture of them it said "My future wifey" Then he has pictures of her and one of hers sons on his page and I was like you dont even have our son on your page. Well i called him and he admitted to it. They had been together for a while even while he was telling me all that bullshit. I was so hurt and depressed for days. WHY DO I KEEP LETTING THIS MAN HURT ME !?I shouldnt even care but I do and I keep thinking about them together and now he dosent really call me anymore its like he just dropped off the planet.I know i should be glad he has left me alone but the way he did things was so wrong but Im not blaming him anymore because I should have never let him back in so im the dumb one. Like they say "fool me once its on you, fool me twice its on me!" He told me he loved her and the 8months that we were apart she helped him through it. So i was like why didnt you tell me this in the first place and he had no answer. I asked him from the beginning did he have someone in his life and he said no you are the only special one to me. Why am i letting an man who was emotionally abusive and just treated me like pure crap hurt me? He was horrible to me but im still here crying because he is with some one else. I dont get it.
He went back to Mississip for his brothers wedding so I didnt hear from him for a week after that. WELL I went on his myspace page and come to find out this son of a bitch has a girlfriend! I was like all that bullshit you were telling me and you have a girl. He didnt make it seem like that to me. Im not going to lie I feel for everything he was telling me. I was sooo hurt. On the bottom of the picture of them it said "My future wifey" Then he has pictures of her and one of hers sons on his page and I was like you dont even have our son on your page. Well i called him and he admitted to it. They had been together for a while even while he was telling me all that bullshit. I was so hurt and depressed for days. WHY DO I KEEP LETTING THIS MAN HURT ME !?I shouldnt even care but I do and I keep thinking about them together and now he dosent really call me anymore its like he just dropped off the planet.I know i should be glad he has left me alone but the way he did things was so wrong but Im not blaming him anymore because I should have never let him back in so im the dumb one. Like they say "fool me once its on you, fool me twice its on me!" He told me he loved her and the 8months that we were apart she helped him through it. So i was like why didnt you tell me this in the first place and he had no answer. I asked him from the beginning did he have someone in his life and he said no you are the only special one to me. Why am i letting an man who was emotionally abusive and just treated me like pure crap hurt me? He was horrible to me but im still here crying because he is with some one else. I dont get it.
Back to NC, No web pages, no email, no txt...be strong, dont be hard on yourself. we all falter this is hard stuff we are dealing with....
You can do this!
I've been through similar, I understand how this feels. My ex-fiance was a covert narcissist. A real nasty one. They know how to infiltrate every corner of our brain, hun.
Don't be hard on yourself, it happens the the brightest people around. I told a friend recently that I was in the (his name) CULT!
With a lot of support, a good therapist, lots of reading about how these people operate..it'll be a real eye-opener. This is not something you can heal from alone.
You will never get the truth or a straight answer from them - only more crazy-making behavior.
Please understand none of it was your fault, and you are not the crazy one, he is!