Not that I can give you medical advice but, I was offered amitriptiline also and I said I didn't want to go down the tablets and was there any alternative therapy I could do instead, like self help course or counselling.

I tried EMDR therapy and never had medication and I feel very peaceful now! I was already having person centred counselling and had it along side the EMDR.

I now don't have any therapies or counselling and I feel completely different. Medication isn't always the only way and if your worried and would rather not then do as I did and ask your GP if you Could go down the alternative route.

I'm sorry you are feeling the effects of all the stress. With all that's going on, it's not surprising. Hopefully it will lessen as you practice loving self-care.

Are you referring to amitriptyline? If so, years ago my dr prescribed it (also known as elavil) at the same dosage as you were to take before bed to help me get better sleep & reduce pain. The theory is that when we don't get good refreshing sleep, our pain and stress levels rise. It was explained to me at the time that it would be given in higher dosages if it were being used as an antidepressant. Of course I'm not a dr & things could have changed since then, so you might want to talk to her further & explain your concerns about taking it and ask her to further explain her reasons for prescribing.

Sometimes meds can help for the short term. But you might also want to talk w/your counselor about it as well.

Sending you big healing hugs....