It has been a hard 2 weeks now. I don't know if new years counts, I sent a mass text and he was on the list. He never answered back. But anyway its been about 2 weeks.
My ex friend is now sleeping around with my ex man, which I confirmed with her daughter, who said they been in contact with each other for some time now. So not only am I going nc with him, but also w/ my ex friend.
How sad is that I have no man and no friend now. My heart is broken twice now. I care, I care, I care.
It sucks that I have to go on without them. I just pray that she doesn't live with what I lived with. And She is the ex advocate, she got fired from her job. And she is drinking and into drugs, when she is like that she cares for no one, and has no feelings and no conscience. But regardless I am so hurt by her actions. We have known each other for many years, way back to diapers, and probably before that.
I went and documented the whole situation at victims of crime w/ her. I told her that I couldn't see her at the office, because her aunt works there, but she went ahead and met me there at the office, and I felt very uncomfortable. So anyway, I just told her the whole story and she confirmed herself that she was texting him, but that it was only to take up for me. (not true). She was texting him because he was making promises to her to take her out on dates, and her children too. So she bought into the materialistic part really easy.
I feel like such a fool and so stupid that I fell for such a sleazy man. I can't tell you how embarrassed I am that I was so in love with him. I wish it never happened. I wish I would have said no when he asked to meet me the first time. I wish I would have left him the first time he cheated on me.
there is a lot of should of, would of, could of's here, but only thing I can do is change the future and accept the mistake I made and move on. It is so much easier for me this time. I don't feel like I NEED him anymore. I think it has something to do with the respect that I HAD/Have for my ex friend. I promised myself that I would never disrespect my friends one day when one of there bf's in high school would hit on me, I promised I would never disrespect them like that. And to this day it still is that way. I still maintain self respect and carry myself with pride, because I have a loyalty to people and always make sure I treat others the way I would like to be treated. So I am very hurt and very angry that she would do this to me.
I warned her how dangerous he is. She knows from when she would see how he treated me. I guess you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink. haha! one person would say you can lead a horse to water, but you can't change it's spots. kind of makes sense if you think about it.
Well thank you for letting me ramble.