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Sending you strength filled hugs & positive thoughts & prayers.

Positive thoughts, wishing you strength and peace and clarity of mind. Hugs.

We all support you freedom.
Stay strong and for now, have a nice dinner with your sister.
One step at a time.
Please try not to stress to bad. Stress kills. Take lots of deep breaths.

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Thanks everyone... I am trying not to stress about it and put the focus back on me and on healing myself.

I have realized, after talking to my sister, that much my difficulty in leaving him has to do with shame. Shame I was seeing him, shame I dated and fell in love with him in the first place and shame I tolerated his abuse for so long. I also feel like I am a horrible person for leaving him.

All of this has to do with deeper inner issues that are not about him at all. I have been running from these issues all my life. I am finally trying to just love myself for once.

I hope you make it through all this and your life turns out much better than it was with your ex! You can do whatever you set your mind to do! You go girl!!

It's good that your looking inwards and honouring the things you feel you want to work on, that's the first step and it's always the hardest!

Perhaps get a book relating to what you want to work on within you and start the process of really aiming for growth in this!

That's what I normally do anyway and it has helped me.

Remember that as hard as it is to walk away, it's also the only way to self heal because whilst your in contact with him you'll be a victim of abuse, now u can be a survivor instead and that is far more positive for you!

Stay positive!!! I know too well how hard it is. Sending strength, encouragement and positive thoughts your way!!! We are all here if you need us.

Thanks, everyone.

Today is a hard day. I woke up feeling sad and missing him- more accurately, wishing things could have been different. I know what a futile wish that is, but it is still painful to admit.

I am going to spend some time praying and meditating today, trying to release this pain and the hurtful memories inside of me.

One step at a time.

I am so glad this board is here. :)

Pray freedom, pray!!! Stay positive and pray. I know how hard it is!

We are all here for you. It is really hard when you are having a hard day even to come here and post but keep doing it!!!

That wishing sucks royally. Possibly even more so once you really realise that the wish is futile.

Sending you strength and compassion. This is a tough time, but know that this too shall pass. You are already very strong, very wise. And yes, it also sucks to have to face the things you have been running from for so long (boy don't I know THAT one), but it's worth it.

You got this, and we got your back! :-)

You're no longer seeing and are blocking an abuser? That is AWESOME.

I think it's tough to be having strong feelings and be with someone who doesn't understand. I find it helpful to cradle those feelings knowing I can release them with people who understand, if that helps.

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