Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
Im 25 and I lived with my (unintentionally) emotionally abusive and manipulative parents until I was 23.
I am finding more and more the cost of that experience. I am emotionally and mentally underdeveloped. I don't know how to interact appropriately with people. What is acceptable or unacceptable too say or talk about in certain situations with certain people.
It gets discouraging when you slip up and do something inappropriate but it feels like you can't talk about why you did it and that it was an accident because you are an "adult" even though mentally you are still a 13 year old. I know that seeing a therapist will help but right now it is hard to find one.
I'm just feeling frustrated and discouraged.
I am finding more and more the cost of that experience. I am emotionally and mentally underdeveloped. I don't know how to interact appropriately with people. What is acceptable or unacceptable too say or talk about in certain situations with certain people.
It gets discouraging when you slip up and do something inappropriate but it feels like you can't talk about why you did it and that it was an accident because you are an "adult" even though mentally you are still a 13 year old. I know that seeing a therapist will help but right now it is hard to find one.
I'm just feeling frustrated and discouraged.
It's always hard to find
a really good therapist,
but also, very worth the
effort.
It's really pretty much
the best way to repair
the wounds inflicted
from growing up in
dysfunction.
Please take very good
care of yourself.
Sending you hugs and
healing wishes.
I can also relate to feeling awkward! I am much older than you, and just about panic when a there is a new employee at work, and kick myself for years after saying something awkward, etc. I with you!
But sometimes I catch myself blaming myself for how some 'not very godly' folks I've come across have acted toward me, I just keep tearing myself apart like "maybe this person said I was worthless because I'm REALLY just so pathetically awkward" etc etc. Then my intelligent side pops up again and says "wait a minute... no good person (none at all!!!!!!) would suggest that someone's not good enough, for being painfully shy." If someone is like that with you then they have more serious problems than awkwardness.
I hope you're doing well!