Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
I dreamt that pothead was laying in bed with me with his back to me. I felt so much love for him and I turned to him and wrapped my arms around him and didn't expect him to return the love I felt for him. I expected him to give me a cold distant hug. I expected him to be irritated with me. Instead he turned and held me and I felt the love and tenderness to the full extent. I woke up this morning not wanting to wake up and I kept trying to recapture that feeling, but it went away. I felt so lonely this morning and all day. I found my self missing him and wanting to see him. later on today I end up having to drive by his mom's house and I forced myself not to look. When I went back by I was in the passenger seat and I looked at his truck and quickly turned away as I didn't want to feel the pull.
When I finally woke up and arose from bed on the bedside was an old players club card of his from a casino. I grabbed it and said a quick prayer for him and threw the card away and went on about my day.
Living in this small community where there are constant reminders of him. It's hard, but I love my reservation and the people here and wouldn't dream of ever leaving here. But sometimes the ache in my heart becomes so unbearable.
When I finally woke up and arose from bed on the bedside was an old players club card of his from a casino. I grabbed it and said a quick prayer for him and threw the card away and went on about my day.
Living in this small community where there are constant reminders of him. It's hard, but I love my reservation and the people here and wouldn't dream of ever leaving here. But sometimes the ache in my heart becomes so unbearable.
My ex lives in my neighbourhood, and we drove right past each other a few days ago. We passed each other like we never knew each other. I was just taking a bit of my bread, but once i saw him, I instantly lost my appetite. I thought I'd let him go, but I realized that I haven't completely. I felt sad suddenly and couldn't even explain it to myself, but I just knew I was sad. But at the end of the day, whatever we feel, we have to and will get over it. Gotta move on...
Hugs!! As I just said, gotta move on, but at the same time, take things easy...always need to balance letting ourselves feel whatever emotions we experience and managing moving on from them
Things will get easier with time. You just have to give it time. I'm pretty sure that is something you are tired of hearing and I'm sorry. Try to think of happy things that don't include him during the day and especially just before you go to sleep.
Take good care of yourself and stay safe.
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I forced myself to call and make plans with two of my oldest and most honest friends, we had appetizers and not a lot to drink, but I went on his night, without him mAking a fuss, I don't care what he says anymore.
But the point is, it felt so good to go out with old friends and not revolve my life around him, which I usually do. So, me thinks you are headin in the right direction, an inspiration for sure.
I don't see my ex since had to leave without letting him know where I am. But I love the city where we met and spent about 7 years of the relationship in its own right. Only now, it feels tainted by memories of his Jekyll to Hyde transformations everywhere I look whenever I visit the place.
Part of my own challenge is to find a way to enjoy the city without reference to him or the relationship that is no more. I don't want to never go back to a place I love merely because of its past link with him.
But I do get some of what you are saying... and no way is it ever easy. Take heart that it may in time get easIER, though :)
Take care of yourself, and be patient with yourself too xx