Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
I am new here and don’t know where to begin.
I was emotionally, verbally, financially and sometimes sexually abused by an ex for 10 years on and off because there are times when I found my strength to walk. I left for good in 2017, and was dating someone else for an entire year. Recently began talking to and sleeping with my abusive ex again thinking he had “finally come to” and that it wasn’t abuse.
Sunday night I woke up sweating in tears and in hives (in his bed) to be confronted with the reality that NOTHING has changed. I feel stupid, used, and rejected (he’s telling me we won’t ever be together but won’t leave me alone) he gaslights EVERY thought I have, ignores me, makes it seem as if I’m not important to him although we’ve lived together, have relationships between our families , etc etc. Everytime I walk away he’s constantly, consistently at my parents house. I feel trapped, I want to run far away from everything. I don’t know what to do or where to turn
I have been to therapists, support groups, healing sessions, church, yoga, meditations, retreats out of the country, etc. nothing has helped me to shake this. It is physically showing up in my body now.
someone please help
WTF
I was saying I completely understand..
I cried myself to sleep last night
As I laid quietly in your bed
I wrapped my arms around me tightly
Wishing it were you holding me instead
Two blankets and one pillow should've been enough to keep me warm and snuggled
Your back to mine was cold as ice with no desire from you to cuddle
You peacefully slept as I silently wept and prayed for a simple sign
Nothing happened and nothing ever will so I'll give up and stop my trying
You will never be my woman were the words you said but my heart didn't understand
Alone in your bed with you laying next to me painted a vivid picture my could finally comprehend
Goodbye User
I've been in your shoes for six years and I'm still in love with him and my heart takes control of my mind every time I try to get away and it just opens up and let's him right back in..You are not alone! You have people around the world giving you strength, love, support and encouragement as well as silent listeners so you can vent!! Stay strong and believe that you will get through this..one day at a time!
we can look at a relationship ,float around us, splash water at it, let it float far off- remain buoyant- we practice it- how? with all our circumstances in life. Dont worry we have all been The Seashells that washed ashore I am a seashell that has washed ashore-your like where the hell am I how the hell did I get here-then all you can do is start singing to the couple of other seashells 'How did we get here- Nobody 's suppose to be here- No Nobody's suppose to be here 9 Deborah Cox) lol= Dammit sometimes you end up being the Seashell washed ashore.Feeling shipwrecked all that- you are definately not alone no not alone.Like we all need to get together and throw a beautiful soiree to re-identify with our beautiful selves-See what
happened was there was no one to tell you girl-You pulled out all the stops, therapy,counseling, yoga,church-you did you.The problem is he has never gotten help.Whenever you get these urges try the DS support group.You should not have contact-for you are undoing all the precious time that you engaged yourself in therapy.Good Luck and Positive Energy and Vibes to you!!!!! Relax always finding your Center, Your Truth .Your profound relationship with Self and float
However, this morning I also received a “I miss you and you’re on my mind” message that has me on edge. I replied “thanks” to him to keep the peace because I know no response or saying something else would provoke an argument and him telling me how horrible I am for “being so mean and nasty when I’m trying to show you I care” I’ve heard this a million times before. I’m afraid to block or ignore him it makes me even more anxious than communicating.
This cuts me so deep