I haven't been thru those stages but I blv it's something that u instinctively feel. Do u feel that u can have it again? What things do u feel will bring it about? On better days I c life as a journey to be explored...w lessons to be learned. What do u think about volunteering for a cause u feel close to even once or twice a month..we were talking about pets.. And here..the shelter looks for people to walk dogs, I kno it takes some commitment on the volunteers part, but it helps too to interact w others, for me so I don't feel so inadequate on the world.

I was talking about bringing about self-esteem.

Living one day at a time is about all any of us can do. And for those of us who have survived abuse, not living in the past or not reliving the past is a major accomplishment.
Thinking you are numb could be that you are just content, neither deliriously happy or seriously depressed. Maybe you have just reached a place of acceptance, of your life and your experience. I don't think it necessarily indicates that you aren't capable of feeling emotion, but that things in your life are predictable and stable. Maybe it's time to seek out doing those things that make you happy, those things you couldn't do when you were in your abusive relationship.

Thanks you guys I think I probalby need to seek out things to do but lately I feel extremely tired and like I said numb. Like today if I had got up with my act together I could have gone to help in the food bank which is something I wanted to do but I couldn't make myself get ready you know like shower, dress, and go! I didnt want to do anything today I feel too tired. I have been really tired lately. Thats why I just go one day at a time. Like it is 12:30 here and i feel I need a nap i'm so tired! Maybe like Learned says I am just accepting life this way and I am neither deliriously happy or seriously depressed maybe that is what it is! I dont know.

Rad I feel like that at times too. Mine is more a peaceful numb. And honestly if I feel like staying in my pjs these days it's because I can! In therapy I was explaining the same thing. She said stop fighting your feelings and think you are supposed to feel something different. So now I kind of go with it.

When you are ready to get dressed and do something else you will know. For now be ok with yourself.

Hi Rad
I'm hoping it's a good kind of numb, possibly the beginning of indifference to your ex????????
I would say when you hit indifference, you've definitely won the battle and are ready to move on with your life.
You don't want to either love or hate him, because that means he still has control of your feelings.
When you just plain don't care anything about him. You won the war!!!!
You are feeling stronger---you will keep feeling stronger. Just keep doing things that make you happy and spoil yourself. I think you are getting there and I am excited for you!!!!
Sending tons of support and hugs!!!!

Thanks you guys I did stay in pajamas all day and took a nap just because I felt tired and maybe it is indifference because I dont feel anthing about him I just feel nothing. Maybe I should recognize it as peace because is sure is better than the drama with him! I also ate catptain chrunch for lunch!! lol

You'll find yourself, living, in one day at a time land, just patiently being still and going with the flow!

You've not lost her, your just expecting to only feel alive with drama, the bad and the good!

But just be! And if u go with it and stop fighting not or waiting and instead just let yourself in this moment right now, this peaceful, not much going on moment, just let yourself flow through every inch of your cells, from top to bottom, you'll find you, the one who u can't wait to be, already being who you are!!!

No one can really take it away from you, and u can't lose it either, you just get roped into the biggest illusion and magic show of the century! And u have been conditioned to feel out of sorts with yourself !

U always have good solid advice for others on here,

I think who u r is a strong person, and if I can see you for who u are then remember that you don't have to wait to be yourself any longer!

Your perfect right now!!!

aw thanks Kaz!! I think your right. I did just go with it today and took a nap, then walked on my treadmill, and came on here and did some reading today. It was a peaceful day I have to admit. i think your right about having been roped into the biggest illusion and majic show of the century and it takes a while to fully recover from that crazy show! Wow I like how you put that! Thanks, everyone helped me feel more postitive. There are just those times where I feel a bit weak and today was one of those days. I didn't get real depressed or cry I just went slow all day today. Until i got on the treadmill. My son and I are going to get dinner out probably fast food for a treat because I am so lazy today. Tomorrow I will go to work and cook again. Thanks everyone, Elena, Learned, Beaten, Gem, & Kaz! i did my meditation and prayer today and I included all my friends on here for blessings to help with each ones struggles. I hope some of these prayers reach you all!